Friday, March 30, 2012


We are so excited for the the Walk and Roll a thon tomorrow morning!!!  THANK YOU to all of you who joined the ROOT FOR ADAM team!!! We can't wait to see you tomorrow...

It's not too late to join, you can register tomorrow at the walk, be there at 9:00am.  



What: Brain Injury Association of North Carolina Annual Walk and Roll A Thon

Where:  Lake Crabtree Park, 1400 Aviation Parkway, Morrisville, NC

When: 9:00am for registration and the beginning of the festivities, 10:30am for the actual walk start

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Believing In God's Promises and Rejoicing Along The Way

I can't wait to share all the amazing things going on...

Throughout the month of March we have seen God move in a mighty, mighty way!!!  Our month started with Adam's termination and that process has been a nightmare going through it... his company did not make the transition easy at all.  We are still having to finish and go through mounts of paperwork because of the disruption caused.  It came really close (down to hours) of disrupting Adam's care and therapies.  I was on the phone trying to figure out how to get it all to work out and the lady on the phone said to me I was asking the impossible, she said to me that I was asking for 3 weeks worth of paperwork to be completed in less than 12 hours and that there was no way it was going to happen... apparently she hasn't met my God, because He moves in MIGHTY ways... she got to see for herself... all of Adam's paperwork came through in those 12 hours and miraculously there was no disruption to his care!!!  Isn't God good!!

We are working really hard to get Adam home for good.  His physicians and therapists do not recommend him coming home because of the level of care they feel he needs.  I disagree, Adam is different at home... he's relaxed and thrives in our home.  They feel that with escalating agitation and his risk of fleeing that he wouldn't be safe at home or that he could put Mackenzie and I at risk.  I am praying that we will be able to bring him home and that he could go back to being in the day treatment program.  Please be praying for this.  Our family needs routine and with Adam in a facility it's very hard to have any form of routine.

I don't even know where to begin to share all of Adam's progress... I am going to start with the biggest news... Adam has become completely continent!!!!!  This has taken months of work both at home and in therapy!!!!!  I am so excited to report healing in this area!!!  Over this last month Adam's physical therapist Karen has been awesome at getting Adam out and finding interests, she has taken him to play frisbee golf, she has taken him swimming, and when she was retesting Adam today on his progress levels he has made impressive gains this month!  In speech therapy, Adam is so much, his writing has improved the most (including his spelling).  Tonight we were playing action charades, I would write an action on the white board and Adam would have to act it out... I wrote a word not realizing I had misspelled it, and Adam says to me "Uhhh, I don't think you spelled that word correctly"!!!  He still needs a lot of prayer around his Aphasia, he struggles so much trying to find the right words and expressing them.  This will take another miracle, so please keep praying that God will heal Adam's Aphasia.

This weekend, Adam's mom was visiting from Oregon.  She took us out to get a lawn mower (which I am sure all of our neighbors are rejoicing as well, our lawn was quite long)... when it was delivered on Monday, I asked Adam if he wanted to try mowing a strip of grass.  He didn't just mow a strip, he mowed the ENTIRE yard!!!  He even turned the mower and lined it up where he left off and kept going... so incredible!!!  This is so incredible when I step back to think about the entire journey and all that I have been told Adam would never do again and all that he has endured... and with Christ's power and strength he continues to overcome so many obstacles... he mowed the lawn!!!

I know this has been such a long journey and I thank you all for praying for us regularly... it's because of your prayers that nearly 2 years later Adam continues to make gains and improved DAILY!  This is a miracle in and of itself!!!  Thank you for your prayers, we still have a long road ahead of us and we really need you all to continue to join us in prayer as we fight our way through this exhausting journey.  Adam needs prayer for his memory, specifically his short term memory. Please pray that his short term memory will show signs of being intact and pray that the Lord will heal the connections necessary for his short term memory to start working.  Please also pray for his muscles to lengthen again not making everyday life and movement painful.  Please continue to pray for his Aphasia.  Please pray for the many hands invovled in Adam's recovery, his docotors, therapists, and those working with him hour by hour.

Often when Adam and I pray together, he thanks God for His promises. It's clear through his prayers that he fears the Lord and loves Him... it's evident that Adam believes in ALL of God's promises for him. This is the promise I am holding onto and beleiving in Jeremiah 33:6 Nevertheless, I will bring health and healing; I will heal my people and will let them enjoy abundant peace and security.  I will continue to believe in God's promises for Adam's restoration and in the process we will rejoice along the way!  Join us in praying for Adam's FULL restoration and believing with us in God's promises of health and healing, and abundant peace and security.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Heavy Heart

My heart is so heavy tonight for so many friends going through so many journeys of their own... I have been in a constant state of prayer today... I watched as an acquaintance had a mental breakdown at work today and most likely lost his job, my heart hurts for a friend's child who has been having suicidal thoughts because of bullies at school, and another friend grieving the loss of a miscarriage, another friend ruining his life with worldly things like drugs and alcohol.  I feel these pains for my friends and my heart physically aches.  I know that these circumstances can feel so overwhelming and I know the emotional pains hurt far worse then the physical ones.  I feel these pains so much deeper than I would have 2 years ago.  I can't help but lay at the foot of the cross today broken, not for myself and my circumstances, but for those struggling in their own journeys.  How my heart hurts.

All day today I have been in a consistant state of prayer, praying without ceasing.  One thing I know for sure, God never promised life would be easy and painless... no, His word says "In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." John 16:33.  Tonight I pray that those people in the circumstances above will take heart, knowing God has overcome this world, knowing He has claimed victory, knowing that we should keep our eyes focused not on the things of this world, but on our end prize... standing face to face with Jesus.  Please pray for those that I listed above... each one of them needs constant prayer right now.  Each one of them needs to feel God in a very real, very tangible way right now.  Each of them need to meet Jesus... pray that their hearts would be open to allowing God to fill them with His spirit, to fill them with His peace.  Oh how my heart is heavy, not just for their circumstances, but for their own hearts and lives.  I am taking heart tonight knowing God has won and claimed victory and one day EVERY knee will bow and EVERY tongue will confess that Jesus is Lord of ALL!

I want to be bold in sharing my faith, I want my faith to be the defining factor of my life... I want to share my faith so that others will not perish but meet my Savior Jesus and spend eternity in heaven with Him... and there is only one way to heaven and that is through Jesus... recognizing we have all sinned and have fallen short, but that Christ died for us, forgiving us of our sins that seperated us from Him and giving us grace and mercy so that we may spend eternity in heaven.  John 14:6 Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.  1 Peter 3:18  For Christ died for sins once for all, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive by the Spirit. 

Two years ago I don't think I could have felt this deeply or even known how to pray for or comfort those facing such painful circumstances, and last year I couldn't see beyond my own circumstances...  I am so thankful that my journey is daily teaching me to live beyond myself, beyond my circumstances.  What a priviledge it is to pray for others, to cry for others... to love beyond myself.  In spite of how hard of prayer this is, I will continue to pray that God will break my heart for the things that break His... and I challenge you all to join me in this prayer. 

Psalm 30:5  "weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning." 

PS:  UPDATE ON ADAM AND OUR FAMILY SOON... I just wanted to share my heart and ask you to join me in praying without ceasing for those I mentioned as well as those in your life who have not yet met their Savior.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Promises and Possibilites

Well, it looks like I am going to pick up right where I left off 2 weeks ago.  God has been showing me how faithful He is and how immensely strong His promises are.

He has promised to be faithful and He has abundantly, He has promised peace and I have experienced peace that surpasses all understanding.  He promises hope, and He has supplied hope even when it doesn't make sense and when so many others have lost hope.  He promises everlasting love, and I feel the arms of my Savior around me constantly. 

He promises that with Him ALL things are possible.  A week or so ago in my devotion came this... "We often limit our vision to what we know to be within the realm of possibility no as God defines possibility, but as we define it.  We set ambitious but realistic goals.  We pray from impressive but conceivable miracles.  We hope for divine but plausible resolutions to our problems."  But we forget and need to hear it again:  ALL THINGS (Adam's FULL restoration) are possible with God.  God does not promise to give us all that we have on our agenda, but He does promise to meet real needs in response to real faith.  Never have His purposes been foiled by circumstances too demanding.  Never has His strength fallen short of a need.  This is the promise we have in our Savior.  ALL things are possible with God.

I continue to stand believing in God's promises, waiting in anticipation of Adam's FULL restoration.  Each and every day that passes we are one step closer.  I am rejoicing that Adam is continuing to make HUGE progress every day.  He has already defied so many odds, there is only ONE explanation... God is at work in my man!!!!

This morning we had a pretty large storm plow through our little town of Fuquay Varina... but the remnants of the storm were what was really impressive.  When I walked outside this morning and looked to the sky, there were colors I had never seen before... it was so incredible.  From dropping Mackenzie off to driving to Adam's therapies this morning (about a 45 minute drive) I saw at least 6 rainbows.  I have come to realize in this journey... sometimes we have to go through really intense storms to see the beauty in all that surrounds us.  This morning, that is what the storm reminded me of.

The sky this morning

A rainbow

I couldn't figure out how for the life of me to get this picture of the double rainbow straight up.

We have been up to so much the last few weeks, that I will update again soon... but for now, please don't forget to join the ROOT FOR ADAM team for the Brain Injury Association of North Carolina's annul Walk and Roll A Thon.  Email   Deadline to join the team is Friday.  I am sad to say, we were unable to get donations for ROOT FOR ADAM tee shirts so they will not be available... sorry.  But we are going to have a great time walking for a good cause!!! So come join Adam, Mackenzie, and I raise money for the Brain Injury Association of North Carolina!

Monday, March 5, 2012

God's Everlasting, Never Ending Love

So, as I mentioned on the last post I wanted to give an update on our family since it's been nearly 3 weeks.  Adam is continuing to daily make progress!  Seeing God at work in Adam daily, seeing God tangibly every day has been one of the greatest gifts God has given me.  I am so ashamed to admit this, but it will prove the work God is doing in my life... several weeks before Adam's injury my journal really reflects where my thoughts were at the time... I questioned God's love for me.  I didn't understand how if God loved me then why didn't I feel it.
Now 2 years later I can't believe there was ever a time that I questioned God's love for me, getting to see Him provide for us daily, drawing me into Him by His love daily, healing Adam daily, sending me constant reminders not just His love for me, but how vast His love is for me.  Now instead of questioning God's love for me, I want others to experience God's love in the tangible way I feel it every day.  God loves you so much and it's truly with tears in my eyes that I am letting you know God loves you, He is pursuing you, He wants to woo you, He wants you to feel His love, to intimately experience His love.  His love is unchanging, never ending, everlasting!

Psalm 103:17  But from everlasting to everlasting the Lord's love is with those who fear him, and his righteousness with their children's children.

Jeremiah 31:3  The LORD appeared to him from afar, saying,"I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore I have drawn you with loving kindness.

1 John 4:16  So we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him.

The only way I make it through each and every day is through the grace of God, through His love for me.  This journey is far too difficult, far too much to handle on my own.  There are some extremely intense, painful and exhausting days, especially when Adam is agitated and or confused... knowing that God loves me and feeling it completely engulf me makes even these days blessings... why?  Because, I know God uses it all for His good!  I choose to take God at His word.

Speaking of agitation, we had a doozy of a day on Friday... Adam woke up screaming at the staff, yelling at anyone who would look at him or get in his way.  By the time I got there just a little after this started, he made it very clear that he didn't want me anywhere near him either.  My heart breaks for Adam in these moments, I can't even begin to imagine how difficult it would be to be so confused and scared.  Hours after walking the entire premises of Learning Services and exploring every door, Adam (with supervision) went out to the parking lot and climbed into an unlocked car thinking he was going to drive away... finally I could tell he was starting to wear himself out I was able to come up beside him without yelling at me and I just told him I was needing him to hold me, I asked if he could cuddle me in his bed... we climbed in and he fell asleep, waking up having no memory of the hours before or even showing much sign of any agitation. 

(I wrote the below Saturday)
The brain is so fascinating and I love to see God's creativity through it.  For Adam to experience what he did yesterday morning, yet by the afternoon he was back to being my sweet, kind, loving man.  I am so glad that our darkest moments are just that... just moments.  We had plans for Adam to attend the men's breakfast at our church this morning and I thought I should probably cancel considering what we went through yesterday, but I decided to pray about it and trust God for the answer rather than relying on what I thought.  Last night before climbing into bed I reminded Adam of the men's breakfast at church and he asked if he was going... I said "that's the plan"... this morning when he woke up, I asked him and he said right now, Mackenzie and I are enjoying a moment together sitting at Starbucks while Adam is able to hang out with the men of our church!  What a blessing this is for all of us!  I am so thankful for all those who help us get Adam back into a normal life.

Part of Adam's diagnosis is Aphasia, Aphasia is a condition that robs you of the ability to communicate. Aphasia can affect your ability to express and understand language, both verbal and written. The amount of disability depends on the location and the severity of the brain damage that is the cause.  With therapy and  working consistently with Adam, he has the potential to overcome this obstacle.  We have become actively involved with the non-profit organization Triangle Aphasia Project, TAP. It's one of the most amazing non-profit programs I have ever seen!  Adam gets to work with speech therapists who volunteer to this program and who are specially trained for Aphasia.  It also exposes us to other families who are struggling through Aphasia and because they understand they talk to Adam rather than just me.  They know that he understands everything they are saying, and they allow him to take the time he needs to feel included in the conversations.  TAP has been such a blessing to us.

This jouney has been such a gift and a blessing, Adam and I have both learned an incredible amount, met people we might never would have, have learned to rely solely on God, and learned to take life moment by moment, knowing that's all we have been give.  Rejoicing in each moment as the gift that it is.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

March is Brain Injury Awareness Month

WOW!!!  It feels so good to be writing again!!!  The Lord called me into a sacred time with Him the last few weeks and have been so incredibly blessed by the messages He has written on my heart (and in my journal!!!).  I know God is writing these sweet messages on my heart because His word tells me so.  Deuteronomy 11:18 Fix these words of mine in your hearts and minds; tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads.  This verse speaks of the importance of memorizing scripture.  I often feel like I can't cram one more thing into my brain.  Often I say Adam's brain is the one that's injured, but mine is officially MIA.  It makes it difficult to memorize scripture when my head is so bogged down with so much consistently.   I started carrying note cards of scripture with me early on in this journey.  I am always switching out my note cards depending on what God is writing on my heart and depending on the season in the journey.  I can't tell you how blessed I have been to carry the note cards and reference to them when I start thinking about the scripture verses I read in the morning, but can't seem to recall by afternoon.  After reading the note cards several times, usually the scripture comes more quickly to my tongue and much more quickly in my thoughts.

Where do I even begin after this long of a sabbatical from blogging... How about I start with WELCOME TO BRAIN INJURY AWARENESS MONTH.  March is brain injury awareness month and there is a lot going on...

First off, if you emailed us about the Walk and Roll a thon at the end of this month we were having some technical difficulty so it has taken a little bit to get up and running again.  If you have not heard back from us, please email now, we are up and running.

For those just tuning in, the Brain Injury Association of North Carolina is hosting their annual Walk and Roll a thon March 31st at 9am at Lake Crabtree Park and we have been putting together a team to specifically walk for Adam.  So please join our ROOT FOR ADAM team by emailing  Help us meet our goal of 50 for Adam's team.  We are praying also for either a company or a private donor to donate tee shirts for all those who walk for the ROOT FOR ADAM team... so you if this is something you are interested in, please also email. If you cannot walk but would like to contribute please also email and we will get you connected with our paypal link.  This is a fundraiser for the Brain Injury Association of North Carolina, this is not specifically for Adam.

THIS WEDNESDAY MARCH 7th California Pizza Kitchen in Raleigh, Durham, and Charlotte will be donating 20% of their proceeds to the Brain Injury Association of North Carolina.  Please come out and have a fun dinner with friends or family and contribute to a great cause while enjoying your meal!   

Adam's fundraiser will be held in May and I will keep you posted as details are made.  We are still seeking people to help with the fundraiser as well as someone to step up and coordinate putting the event all together.  We are blessed to have a venue and an idea, but we are looking for volunteers to help facilitate our ideas and make them realities!

Lots of events and fun ways to get involved.  If you are not able to help with any of these events please consider joining your state's brain injury association.  The Brain Injury Association of North Carolina as been vital to our families ability to obtain the proper resources and connections to make Adam's recovery a success as well as offering our entire family the support needed to endure and persevere through each day of this journey.  Find out more information at or by calling 800-377-1464.  For an annual membership it's $38.00 that's about 10 cents a day to help so many families.

I just want to encourage any family with a loved one who is administered medications somewhere other than at home, whether it's at school, a facility, or even a hospital to know their loved ones medications and to be there when their loved one is getting medications to ensure they are receiving the proper medications.  I can't tell you how extremely vital this is.  I am blessed enough to be able to be with my man so much and I know his medications like the back of my hand, we have been able to save Adam from quite a few medication mishaps.   This week has been another week of advocating for Adam to ensure his safety.  Saving him from a serious medication mishap, thankful that the Lord ALWAYS has His mighty hand upon my man.   Unfortunately, medication mishaps are all too common in the health care profession, it's one of the leading causes of medical negligence and unnecessary health complications.  I just really want to stress the importance of staying involved and advocating for your loved one.

Tomorrow I will write an update on our family and all that has been going on with Adam's progress.  For now I just wanted to inform you all on Brain Injury Awareness month! AND, the importance of memorizing scripture, write it on a note card if you have to, but carry with you the love letters God has written on your heart.