Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Because He Loves You

With this season of hustle and bustle, often the true meaning... the reason for the season is lost.  We have the privilege of celebrating our Savior's birth, we get to celebrate how much God loves us that He sent His only Son to redeem us so that we can have eternal life with our Father who loves us more than we can EVER fathom.

My brother sent me a CD shortly after Adam's injury, he's gifted with music and putting together the right mix of songs for the right season of my life.  This CD has been no different.  The very last track on this CD tells me just the kind of Father I have and how much He loves me.  Since receiving this CD I listen to this track EVERY day.  I am sure Mackenzie and Adam could probably recite this track.  I am the type of person that I want to know every day just how much the Lord loves me.  I seek Him so that He will fill me more with His love.  I want to share it with all of you, it is very powerful and your perspective of God's love will change from listening to this.  This is about 9 minutes long and worth EVERY second.  I suggest you do what I often do when I am alone... first try to find 9 minutes when you know you will not be interrupted and then turn this up loud so that it permeates throughout your soul.

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Thank You WRAL

Watch us on WRAL News channel 5 at 6pm tonight for a follow up story on our journey.

Friday, December 9, 2011

What A Privilege

I get to praise God through whatever comes, what a privilege... and NOTHING can take the praise out of my mouth.  I am praising the Lord for delivering me through a VERY challenging and difficult 24 hours.  This journey is multifaceted and there are so many layers... handling what goes on behind the scenes of Adam's recovery is often just as difficult as walking with him through each day of recovery.

The amazing blessing, is the incredible man I married!  He is so smart and is an amazing man of God, taking his responsibility very serious.  He has always been an incredible provider for our family and took this role very serious.  When we made the move to North Carolina from Seattle, WA 3 and half years ago, Adam proposed the idea of me staying at home.  He was so funny about it, he said he wanted to call me a stay at home wife, not just a stay at home mom because he loved the peace that this role provided in our home and he said that when our children were all grown and out of the house he wanted me to be a stay at home wife.

When Adam said that to me I felt like that was the highest compliment my man could have paid me.  It was not an easy decision to make, I loved my job and worked very hard to have obtained the success I did in my career.  Having Adam value my role and need to be a wife and a mom was the greatest gift he has ever given me.  The fall before Adam's injury I was in a Bible study and as part of the homework we had to write our 3 greatest fears.  The number one fear I listed was something happening to Adam that would take away our security.  The point of this exercise was every to remember "if this (meaning your  fear), then GOD".  So throughout this journey I often say out loud  "the GOD".  Because not only have I had to come face to face with my greatest fear, but I have also had the challenging work to rely on God, knowing that HE is in control and is carrying us in the palm of His hands.

Now back to explaining the challenges... Because Adam is such a great provider he signed up for the best long term disability package that was available to him.  He wanted to ensure that no matter what happens that he was still able to provide for our family.  Unfortunately, this has not been the case... oh, Adam has held up his end... but because we didn't have a living will in place or power of attorney over each other and because Adam was proven by the state of North Carolina to be incompetent of making decisions a guardian had to be appointed.  So I became Adam's legal guardian shortly after his accident.  So now the state wants to make sure Adam is protected, and because his disability is in his name and everything was in his name before... his funds can only go towards his needs and not to provide for Mackenzie or myself.  And so we have been in the process of trying to purchase a home for us to finally call home after being homeless for the last 19 months, I had to go forward with Adam's account... this didn't look like the state of North Carolina was going to make it possible... but after MUCH prayer and many of you all praying for us over the last 24 hours, we were able to close this afternoon!  And we get to move into our home tomorrow!  Praising the Lord for His blessings.

Getting this all approved was nothing short of a miracle and several of the business professionals we had to work with told me that they didn't think it was going to be possible and today when it all came together they were shocked and said they couldn't believe it all went through today.  I was able to point the glory to God and share the testimony of the power of prayer.  I know everything was approved and went through ONLY by the power of prayer and God's mighty and capable hands.  I also believe God continues to allow obstacles in our journey to grow me in my trust and faith of truly the miraclulous God we serve.  It is a privilege to be used as His vessels, it is a privilege to walk through trying circumstances and trials because through these difficult times He is always proving that He never leaves us, that He is faithful to His promises.  I realize I have a choice every day, I can either choose to be a victim of my circumstances or I can choose to trust in the Lord with all my heart, believing in His promises that He has plans for us for a future and of hope, that He will work all things together for His good because we love Him.

I get to praise God through whatever comes, what a privilege... and NOTHING can take the praise out of my mouth.

Jeremiah 9:23-24  Thus says the Lord: "Let not the wise man boast in his wisdom, let not the mighty man boast in his might, let not the rich man boast in his riches, but let him who boasts boast in this, that he understands and knows me, that I am the Lord who practices steadfast love, justice, and righteousness in the earth. For in these things I delight, declares the Lord."

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Answered Prayers

Thank you all for praying for my man!  He's doing so much better!!!  No seizures since Sunday and he's been responding so much better.  Thank you so much for praying for Adam, God is answering your prayers.

I am praying that these last seizures will show another great break through as they did last winter.  For those who are recovering from a brain injury, seizures are not always a bad thing... they can sometimes show that the brain is trying to make a new connection and it just misfired.  I am praying that we will see many new connections.

The upcoming weeks are going to be VERY busy for us and today was really the last day I had some spare time in my schedule.  So after seeing Adam get ready for his day and having breakfast with him, I drove to the Outer Banks to spend a few hours taking a walk and sitting with God on the amazing beach of North Carolina.  For some reason when I feel like I just need to think, process, meditate on God's word, and want to seek God in a tangible way, I head to the beach.  The word of God says, if we seek Him with all our heart we will find Him.  I know for me this is so true, and today I was desperate for Him... and He is ALWAYS faithful in responding.  I was able to collapse in the arms of my first love today... my Savior. 

The sky was incredible... 75 degrees and beautiful... yes, this is why we live in NC

2 Chronicles 15:15  They sought God eagerly, and he was found by them. So the LORD gave them rest on every side.

I made it back to spend the evening with Adam and get him tucked into bed.  I was so thankful for my day and for the time I was able to spend with Jesus, alone in my thoughts.  One thing I know and I cling to, God's promises are real and He is faithful to bring His promises to fruition.  I know in my heart and trust that God is doing a work in our family and it has only just begun.  I am praying for the faith I need to keep trusting and holding on, even when the journey gets bumpy.

Monday, December 5, 2011

Blessings In Disguise

This weekend was an interesting weekend.  Adam always keeps me on my toes, he had an adverse effect on him.  Starting Friday he had some irritation and then had a couple seizures, then Saturday went into 3 hours of in and out of constant seizures... after speaking with the doctor and devising a plan of action we decided it was best to not call an EMT (at this point it would have made Adam worse, the more he was pushed or directed the more he became agitated, the more he seized).  The doctor suggested taking a double dose of Adam's seizure medication, rest, and then follow up with Dr. Hart (Adam's regular doctor)... this is what we did.  By Sunday he only had 1 seizure and today he hasn't had any!!!  He seems to finally be over his infection and the adverse effect the antibiotic had on him.

I am choosing to believe that these seizures were also breakthrough seizures.  I am praying that God will work these for good in Adam's recovery.  I know with all my heart all that has been suffered and endured in this journey that God will use for His good and for His great purpose.

I am so thankful that Adam has such an amazing team of doctors that we work with.  I consider it such a privilege to be able to be able to have the team of doctors we have.  Dr. Hart is incredible with Adam as well as making himself available to any needs that come up.  What a blessing this is.

When I look at my problems as problems, they will continue to hold me down. Instead, when I see them as blessings in disguise, and that is what they will truly become.  I heard this story... A Christian man lost his home and mill when a flood washed them away. He was broken-hearted and discouraged as he stood surveying his loss. Just then he saw a glittering object that had been uncovered by the waters. It was gold! The disaster he thought had made him a beggar had actually made him wealthy. So, too, the Lord often works through our troubles to strip away certain cherished possessions to show us the better treasures of His love and power. How thankful we should be that in every storm of affliction we have the assurance that the Lord has a good purpose in view!

I know and will continue to proclaim that God will work Adam's injury and recovery process for His good.  His word says that He works together all things for good for those who love him (Romans 8:28).  I can't wait and I stand in anticipation of what the Lord is going to do!

Friday, December 2, 2011

Waiting In Anticiaption

We are bringing to close a very busy week in the Root house!  Last night Adam and I, along with many of our good friends, hosted a Christmas Tree Trimming party at Learning Services.  We sang Christmas carols, decorated trees and many of the windows at Learning Services... we had such a good time and so did all the residents.  It was fun to have some friends come out and bring their families, the residents sure enjoyed the company but especially the children.

I love that it's Friday and Adam is home with me for the weekend, this makes me so very happy.  I find myself counting down the hours till Friday afternoons, knowing that every weekend he gets to come home with us.  Today was no different, despite my crazy busy day, I felt as though it creeped slowly until I was able to get my man and bring him home.

One thing I know the Lord is teaching me and has been over this last week is how to pray differently.  I have always prayed and will continue to pray, standing in anticipation of Adam's full restoration.  However, over the last week the Lord has taught me to pray for Adam's restoration or something better.  I don't know what the Lord has planned for us and how he is going to use all that we have endured and continue to endure... but one thing I do know is He is in control.  While I so badly want full restoration (the way I picture it in my mind), but the Lord so gently reminded me that He is the one that sees the whole picture, He is the one in control and His plans are far better than my mind could possibly fathom. 

I will continue to pray without ceasing for my man's restoration, but I will also submit to His plans allowing Him to transform me through this journey.  I stand in anticipation for what is to come.  Micah 7:7 says "But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me."  I love that God's word even tells me to wait in anticipation!

Thank you for those of you who were praying for Adam this week... he had a minor infection, as soon as I noticed he was a little off we made a quick trip to Adam's doctor and got him on an antibiotic... we were able to stay ahead of the infection before it went full flege.  With the antibiotics he is back to feeling well and has had a great week in therapies.  MaryJo (Adam's speech therapist) left me a note yesterday and all it said was BEST DAY EVER!  I love that!  Your prayers are being answered, please keep praying for my man it's amazing to see God's hand at work in my man every day!