Tuesday, November 29, 2011

God Is All I Need... ALL I Need

Many of you have wondered why I haven't been blogging that much over the last week and a half... well, the truth... it's been a hard week.  This journey never gets easier... just longer.  This last week has been especially difficult because Thanksgiving weekend has held some of my most favorite moments with my man, Thanksgiving has always been our favorite family holiday.  This last week was a  consistent reminder of how different our lives are and will be from now on... we are all forever changed, and sometimes I hate that.

Blogging has just seemed like an impossible task with such a heavy burdened heart... I have needed the hours I have poured into seeking God the last few days.  I needed the reminder that I had taken my eyes from Jesus and looked at the circumstances around me, I was sinking as I looked at the circumstances... I have confessed my heart and refocused my gaze onto the Lord and I am reminded that He is ALL I need.  God stands ready to be the strength in our weakness, the wealth in our poverty, the health in our sickness, the deliverance of our captivity, and the comfort in our despair.  From beginning to end, He is our hope.

I am missing my man so much that the pain from my heartache is physical.  The tears from my sorrow have been falling when I have not warranted them to.  I feel completely raw on the inside, bleeding with pain.  I am still learning, even after 18 months to consistently take it all to Him.  There are times when I just fall at His feet and feel as though I am unable to carry on, but He so graciously picks me up and reminds me of how faithful He has been and is in this moment.  He whispers His never ending, never failing love for me in my ear.  He reminds me that I am His beloved.  And when I grab hold of His love, it gives me the strength to keep going, to endure a little more, to persevere when I feel as though I can't go any further... He is all I need, and He is enough.  John 14:27 (NSAB) "Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful.

No matter how long the journey does feel, and no matter the pain that is experienced... there is so much to be thankful for, so much that God has done to bless us, and so much joy even in the midst of the pain and sorrow.  He has carried us this far and I know this very moment, He is still carrying us in the palm of His great and mighty hands.  He is ALL I need. 

Please, please continue to believe and pray for Adam's FULL recovery, do not loose heart praying for my man, I beg you... He's come so far and we have been so blessed by your prayers, please keep believing and praying for miracles to continue to take place in this journey.  Thank you for your prayers and support.

7 comments:

Emily Jordan said...

Oh dear Amy--
Thank you for being honest with us about your prayer needs. I know you always want to give God glory for all He has done, but the Lord also understands that sometimes you struggle and your heart hurts. He knows each tear you have shed and knows how much you miss the life you shared with your man before the accident. I don't even know you personally and my heart hurts for you sometimes but at other times I am so inspired by you. The Lord is using you GREATLY in your good times and in your hard times. I will pray for you and your man!! You are precious, dear one!! Sending a great big hug your way from Sanford, NC.! :o)
Emily Jordan
P.S. I know you call your man "your warrior" but in this faith journey you are on you are both warriors in my eyes! Stay strong in the Lord. I am believing for a full recovery. Psalm 103

Anonymous said...

Dear One, Of course I will continue to trust Father, for you, for Adam and for Mackenzie...at least until Jesus comes or calls us all home...after that, well, we will all be in the answer. My dear, my situation is different, yes, BUT I do understand your feelings. Right now we are on the underside of the tapestry of our lives, and see only the knots and funky looking pattern of threads. The day will be here soon when we sill see the completed picture of EVERYTHING WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH and be in total AWE of the picture our lives have made. I love you and remember Father loves you more. Hugs, Marion

Anonymous said...

Sweet Amy, each day I check your blog and even if there is nothing posted I pray for you, Adam and your families. Your the one with the daily reminders while we can only try to put ourselfs in your shoes. Just know that your not in this alone no matter how trite that sounds. I am still greving for Adam and while I don't know you I do know Jack and Cookie and I see and feel their pain. All of you have such cross to carry and for that i am so very sorry. Sending love over the wires. I pray that Jesus will make this heart burden light very soon and for Adams continued healing and God's mercy for you all.

Anonymous said...

You have been entrusted with a great sorrow. My spirit groans in intercession for Adam, you and Mackenzie. May the Lord continue to lavish His love over you. May You cling to Jesus and to your local family as God moves in that family of believers. Amen. Philippians 1:6 (NLT) "6 And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns." “But the day of the Lord will come as unexpectedly as a thief. Then the heavens will pass away with a terrible noise, and the very elements themselves will disappear in fire, and the earth and everything on it will be found to deserve judgment. Since everything around us is going to be destroyed like this, what holy and godly lives you should live,” 2 Peter 3:10-11 NLT

Anonymous said...

My Amy,

You have been faithful to blog and know "your" readers understand! They know you shared from the depths of your heart the sorrow and pain, and continue to uplift you, Adam, and Mackenzie to our Heavenly Father. He hears your prayers and holds each of your tears in His mighty Hand. I wish of course that I could take away all the pain and sorrow as your mom. My heart breaks but is still so encouraged by your words of hope you have shared faithfully.
Did you know that there are only 17more sleeps until you are in Seattle? We rejoice and eagerly await your arrival. Hugging you in prayer at this time.
Love always, Mom

Anonymous said...

Amy,

Thank you for your writing. You have no idea how you bless me. I will never stop praying for you and Adam. I love you, and I have no doubt that Adam will have a FULL recovery.

Anonymous said...

That was Jenn (from Orlando) now in Jupiter ;)

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