Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Sweet Blessing

Day 2... success.  With every morning coming so early, I never take for granted that Adam has been fairly easy to get moving.  I will count each day a success if he continues to be able to get out of bed before sun even begins to peak through the horizon.  Adam was never a morning person, and is doing so awesome as we get our day started.  PRAISE THE LORD!!!

We spent most of the day today again in evaluations as each therapist is trying to learn Adam and gage where he is and a starting point.  Adam had a crammed pack schedule from the moment we walked in the door, till the minute we left he was engaged and busy!  When I asked if he liked going to work today he said he yes!  I am so grateful for this answer, I wasn't sure how he was going to like after being home for 5 weeks... but I will say, as awesome as this day program is... the best part is getting to leave WITH Adam at the end of the day, getting to come home together and be a family at home... by far the best!

This evening as we were climbing into bed, Adam just said such a beautiful prayer.  Forming sentences can be such a difficult challenge for Adam to find the right words, so to hear such clarity in his prayers is God working through Adam.  He prayed "Dear Lord, thank you for providing us with these conditions.  Lord, I love and hope for you in my dream.  Thank you very much, I love you, Amen."  I have said this multiple times, Adam's heart of thanksgiving when he prays has been such an example to me.  When I hear him pray my eyes well up with tears, what a miracle my man is.  God's mighty warrior, a true miracle and my gift from God... I just love my man.  Psalm 31:19 How abundant are the good things that you have stored up for those who fear you, that you bestow in the sight of all, on those who take refuge in you. 

Monday, August 29, 2011

Meandering Through The Journey

Adam had his first day of a specialized brain injury day treatment program.  At home we refer to it as Adam going to work.  He essentially works from 9am to 3pm and right now, therapies and working hard to persevere through this injury is his job.  He will have a pretty full schedule during his therapy "work" hours.  I am so excited that he can go to therapies, and at the end of the day we can have dinner as a family at home and all be under the same roof as we sleep... what a sheer miracle this is and a blessing I will not take for granted.

Today was mostly evaluations, and probably most of the week will be evaluations.  He had his physical therapy evaluation... Adam will work with two PT's Abby and Karen.  Abby saw him today and she was amazed by how independent Adam was on so many tasks.  She said based off the paperwork she received from Adam's last week of therapy notes in Florida, she was surprised, pleasantly surprised.  I think it's a testament to your prayers for my man... that for a month of no therapies, he still proved to make plenty of gains.  I was so excited for my man and so proud of him!

Adam was also evaluated by MaryJo his new speech therapist.  Speech has always been a little more challenging for Adam compared to the other disciplines of therapy.  He speaks well and it's not a speech impediment, it's the cognition that speech focuses that proves itself to be challenging.  Please keep praying for my man, for his cognition, and for clarity when he is communicating.  Adam did very well today in his evaluation and MaryJo is excited to work with Adam.  First thing she wants to try tomorrow is giving him a functional task on the computer... he's going to love that.  She also is recommending that Adam and another participant who happens to be around Adam's age spend time together and play Halo, one of Adam's favorite video games.  This will be great for Adam. 

Adam has always enjoyed the work of Frank Lloyd Wright and he and I watched several documentaries on FLW's life.  Adam owns several books that express and show off FLW's work.  So this story caught my eye today... 

Architect Frank Lloyd Wright once told of an incident that may have seemed insignificant at the time, but had a profound influence on the rest of his life. The winter he was 9, he went walking across a snow-covered field with his reserved, no-nonsense uncle. As the two of them reached the far end of the field, his uncle stopped him. He pointed out his own tracks in the snow, straight and true as an arrow's flight, and then young Frank's tracks meandering all over the field.

"Notice how your tracks wander aimlessly from the fence to the cattle to the woods and back again," his uncle said. "And see how my tracks aim directly to my goal. There is an important lesson in that."

Years later the world-famous architect liked to tell how this experience had greatly contributed to his philosophy in life. "I determined right then," he'd say with a twinkle in his eye, "not to miss most things in life, as my uncle had."

This story made me think of Adam's recovery process... he's meandering as if to turn on as much of his brain as possible.  Meandering, soaking it all in, and slowly taking the time to heal... this is how I have seen Adam's recovery be.  So many times I feel like the uncle in the story, I just want to hurry up, stay focused and keeping moving towards the goal, but God, in all His sovereignty reminds me that He has ordered each and every meandering step in this journey.  I pray that I too can enjoy the views of this journey and not rush it along.  Psalms 37:23 says The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord.  I know my man is a good man and I know He trusts God, so I know the Lord is ordering each and every step of this meandering journey.  Praise the Lord for His sovereignty and that He sees the whole picture.

Sunday, August 28, 2011

God's Amazing Sovereignty... I Just Want More of Him

About a year before Adam's injury* I picked up a christian classic... J.I. Packer's Knowing God. I devoured the book and was in love with God even more.  About a year ago, so a few months after Adam's injury I was given the books Attributes of God by A.W. Tozer... I have been camping out this last week on God's sovereignty, and praising Him for His sovereignty.

First lets look at what the Bible says:

1 Chronicles 29:11-12 "Yours, O Lord, is the greatness and the power and the glory and the victory and the majesty, for all that is in the heavens and in the earth is yours. Yours is the kingdom, O Lord, and you are exalted as head above all. Both riches and honor come from you, and you rule over all. In your hand are power and might, and in your hand it is to make great and to give strength to all."

Ephesians 1:11 "In him we have obtained an inheritance, having been predestined according to the purpose of him who works all things according to the counsel of his will"

Daniel 4:35All the inhabitants of the earth are accounted as nothing, and he does according to his will among the host of heaven and among the inhabitants of the earth; and none can stay his hand or say to him, “What have you done?”

J.I. Packer writes "Knowing God is more than knowing about Him; it is a matter of dealing with Him as He opens up to you, and being dealt with by Him as He takes knowledge of you. Knowing about Him is a necessary precondition of trusting in Him, but the width of our knowledge about Him is no gauge of our knowledge of Him."  Knowing God is knowing that He is sovereign.  Nothing is by accident.

(*I am not calling Adam's accident an accident anymore, but referring to it as his injury, by no means is this an accident in God's eyes, but just part of our faith journey with Him.  I can see how we have been prepared and equipped for this journey even a year in advance before the injury took place.  God has plans for His mighty warrior and He has only just began a good work in my man and it is by no means finished yet!)

A.W. Tozer writes "God’s sovereignty is the attribute by which He rules His entire creation, and to be sovereign God must be all-knowing, all-powerful, and absolutely free. The reasons are these: Were there even one datum of knowledge, however small, unknown to God, His rule would break down at that point. To be Lord over all the creation, He must possess all knowledge. And were God lacking one infinitesimal modicum of power, that lack would end His reign and undo His kingdom; that one stray atom of power would belong to someone else and God would be a limited ruler and hence not sovereign.  Furthermore, His sovereignty requires that He be absolutely free, which means simply that He must be free to do whatever He wills to do anywhere at any time to carry out His eternal purpose in every single detail without interference. Were He less than free He must be less than sovereign."

In our devotional time over the last couple of weeks, I have been reading the Bible book of Daniel to Adam.  This book is all about God's sovereignty, which has made me want to study this attribute with a passion.  What I'm finding and what I journeled about today is screaming " I WANT MORE OF YOU"  I want so much more of my Jesus, of my Lord and Savior, of my Sovereign God... I want more.  Amen?!!!  Are you hungry too?  Spend time in the Word and as much as you get quenched, you will leave with a passion of wanting so much more.

This evening Adam and I had our first date night/double date out in over a year!!!  It was perfect.  John and Debbie took us out for our anniversary to one of our favorite date night places that we frequented before Adam's injury.  This is the first time we have been back as a couple since April of 2010!  We had such a wonderful time and it was the most fun I have had out and about in 15 months!  I just love hanging out with my man!  The four of us shared some awesome laughs and great time and I am so grateful for this time.  Date nights are vital to a marriage. (more on this to come)  What a blessing and a gift it was to celebrate our anniversary with friends and outside of a hospital.  What a mighty God we serve.

Things I am giving thanks for this week, Adam's dexterity using a fork has blown me away.  Last week he would hold the fork in his hand while he ate with his fingers of the other hand... this week he used the fork or spoon for every meal!!!  I am giving thanks that I was able to celebrate another anniversary with my man and I am looking forward to the many more to come, not taking one second for granted.  I am thankful we survived an earthquake and a hurricane all in the same week.  I am thankful for incredible friends and family that we could not do this journey without.  My heart is full of thanksgiving.

Friday, August 26, 2011

Celebrating Our Anniversary

Happy Anniversary To My Man!

Adam and I celebrated our 4th anniversary today!!! I love my man so much more than words will ever by able to articulate.  Being married to Adam has taught me so much and I am so blessed that he picked me to be his little lady.  I can't wait to see what God is going to continue to do in our marriage and through our marriage.  I know there are so many more years to come with my man and not one of them will ever be taken for granted.   I count it such a blessing that my man is here alive and well!!!  Last year we were celebrating our anniversary in the ICU and Adam was non responsive in a coma... now look at my man, he's walking, talking, and at home... isn't God incredible!!! 

I read this article this week and wanted to share it with you all and encourage you to write a mission statement for your marriage.  Once ours is done, I want to print off and frame so I will be able to see it often.

Creating a Marriage Mission Statement 

In his best-selling book, The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People, author Stephen Covey Advocates the practice of writing a “personal mission statement.” Such a unique document “focuses on what you want to be (character) and to do (contributions and achievements) and on the values or principles upon which being and doing are based.”

Many individuals have found that such a written creed has helped them stay focused on what matters most in life. Acting as a kind of “personal constitution,” a mission statement serves as a helpful guide for daily decision making. It keeps us on track spiritually, morally, and relationally so that when we get to the end of life we do not look back and feel large measures of regret.

Married couples can also benefit greatly from this process of careful planning and intentional living.

Here are some ways you can stop reacting to life and start living pro-actively in your marriage:

1. Take a long, hard look at your own character. Assess your strengths and weaknesses. Take stock of your gifts and abilities, as well as the blessings and experiences God has put in your life. Think back over your successes and failures. Analyze your God-given passions (e.g., a desire to make a difference in a certain area).
What do you need to change about yourself?
Where do you need divine help?
What qualities are you proud of?
What habits do you need to eliminate?

This can be a very uncomfortable, even painful exercise. But by honest assessment, you can begin minimizing your weaknesses and maximizing your strengths. Also (as AA has discovered), it’s only when we admit we have problems in certain areas, that we begin to seek humbly for help.

2. Envision yourselves at the end of life. It’s your sixtieth or sixty-fifth wedding anniversary, say, and you’re gathered with your children and grandchildren (maybe even great-grandchildren!) They are throwing a big surprise shindig for you, and reflecting on your life together. They are telling stories and expressing their love.
What memories do you want them to have?
What accomplishments do you want to be able to look back over—relationships (with God and with others), impact on the world for eternity’s sake, service to your fellowman, career achievements, etc.?
What character qualities do you want them to remember about you?
What values do you want your children and their descendants to have caught and to be in the process of passing on?
In short, what kind of legacy do you want to leave?

3. Talk to your spouse at length about your values, hopes, dreams, and ideals. (This may even be the subject of a weekend away together.)

This is deeper than, “One day I hope we can buy a boat and a camp on a lake in the country.” This is more along the lines of, “I want us to be a family that is radically committed to Jesus Christ in every way!” or, “My dream is that it could truly be said of us that we poured out our lives in love for and service to God and people.”

Think specifically about these matters. Plan on spending a long time on this exercise. Don’t imagine you can complete this assignment while you’re watching Wheel of Fortune! In essence you are trying to summarize all that you want to live for into a concise statement. You are writing your epitaph in advance.

4. Prayerfully begin backing up. Envision what you need to do now to get to where you’d like to end up. This is where goals come into play. You need long-term goals to point you in the right overall direction, and you need short-term goals to keep you on track day by day, and w
eek by week.
Marital Goal-Setting* (*after you’ve established an overall mission statement)
What specific things do you want to accomplish:
• Spiritually (i.e., relationship with God)?
• Familiarly (i.e., in terms of relating to parents, children, etc.)?
• Physically (i.e., in terms of maintaining your health and fitness)?
• Financially (i.e., in terms of giving, saving, and spending money)?
• Socially (i.e., in terms of maintaining and developing friendships)?
• Vocationally (i.e., in career and/or employment situations)?
• Recreationally (i.e., in terms of leisure activities, vacations, etc.)?
• Intellectually (i.e., in terms of continued mental growth and stimulation)?

I am so in awe of the powerful God that we serve, I praise Him for bringing Adam and I together and allowing me to experience the desire of my heart which was to be a wife... I praise Him for all the blessings He has given us in our marriage and I praise Him that He has drawn me so much closer to Him through my marriage.  He has allowed me to grown and love in ways I never imagined.  I love the journey.
Cheers to you Adam "to the days we have been granted to spend together"  I love you!

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Time With Buddies, Time With My Girl

First day of middle school

Thank you all for praying for Mackenzie today... she will continue to need your prayers.  She had a typical first day of school, lots of paperwork to fill out and sign, listening to class rules... and so on.  She said she felt a little out of sorts, like most people already had their groups of friends, I reassured her that she would make friends and would fit in fine.  Please just keep her in your prayers about choosing friends wisely.

Well today I have ended up with more homework than anyone else... Mackenzie brought home about a dozen or so papers for me to read and sign and then Adam has a huge doctor appointment (described below) that required about 45 pages of reading on my part and filling out questionnaires.  My brain is mush tonight.

Adam has a Neuropsychiatry evaluation appointment tomorrow morning.  This appointment is to determine Adam's medications and to see if they are still working, as well as where he is cognitively speaking and how to help him overcome his deficits.  This is a 5 hour evaluation appointment tomorrow so please keep us in your prayers. 

This evening Adam's best friend Scott and another one of their buddies Mark picked Adam up and they all went for a walk.  It was so awesome that Adam was able to hang out with his buddies and still get some exercise.  While Adam was hanging out with his buddies, Mackenzie and I went to the park and hung out and talked for a bit.  It was so awesome talking with her and getting to focus on her and her first day of school without her feeling like she had to compete for my attention. 

Mackenzie walking by the lake at the park

My sweet girl

Our view this evening while we were chatting

So delightful

More on marriage tomorrow... my time in the Word today has been so broken, only a few minutes here and there, I just want to immerse myself in Jesus tonight.  Just give me Jesus.  He is all I need.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Choosing Friends Wisely

Well today was our last day of summer vacation... I love summer vacation and I am sad to see it go.  We celebrated one of my dear sisters birthdays today... Christina, Bob and Connie's daughter was in town from Virginia and today was her birthday!  So along with her two young daughters we all celebrated.  It was a great day.  Christina's youngest daughter is just under 1 years old and was so sweet to let Adam hold her and play with her.  Adam just lights up and is so animated around young kids.  I love watching him enjoy their company and talk with them.  Mackenzie loves being around family and around her two cousins... she just loves helping Christina and playing with the girls.  Adam, Mackenzie, and I had a very relaxing last day of summer vacation.

Please keep Mackenzie in your prayers tomorrow as she embarks on her new journey of middle school.  Please pray for friends for her to connect with and that she will choose her friends wisely, please pray that she will find favor in her teachers eyes.  Please pray that the homework will be manageable.  Mackenzie is so nervous. Thank you for praying for my kiddo.

Tonight, I want to speak to the wives... how many times have you listened to a friend complain about her husband and you chimed in or agreed with her? How many times have you gone to a friend a complained to them about your husband and didn't want advice, but sympathy?  As women we need to be the nurtures that God created us to be.  We need to nurture our marriages.  How many times have you challenged your close friends to step up and be the wife that God designed them to be?

If you and your husband are having some "intense fellowship" (for those of you who don't know me, this is my term for arguments or disagreements) take it to the Lord and lay at his feet, talk to Him first before you even think about picking up the phone to vent to a girlfriend.  When I have taken my "intense fellowship" topics to God, more times than not He has revealed sin in my own heart that has caused the disagreement.  He has shown me where I need to repent.

Ladies, take a stand... make an effort to not say anything negative about husband.  When you are in a conversation where one might be talking about their husband in a negative manner, if you feel led to say something, encourage your sister to find the positive, to focus on Jesus and His passion for their marriage.  If you don't feel comfortable to say something... try this... WALK AWAY.  I'm not saying don't have compassion of course have compassion, I'm just encouraging you to take a stand.  When a friend will come and seek advice on a marriage issue, I will listen and then take it to prayer with them. 
The Bible says that "A friend loves at all times" Proverbs 17:17 Are you showing love to your friends and respecting and being supportive in their marriage relationships? Maybe your friends don’t have good marriages. But that doesn’t mean that you can’t be a supportive and prayerful friend who pokes holes in the darkness, by the way you talk and live out Christ in your interactions with them. 

True story... several years ago I was involved in a bible study where when several ladies wanted a venting session on how immature their husbands were, they brought it up at prayer time as a prayer request and then that would spur a toxic discussion on men and their "incompentence" (their words not mine)... this would infuriate me.  I ended up leaving the study, but one thing it taught me was to watch how I talked about Adam.  I am by no means telling you to fake it and pretend things are okay if they are not... I have one close friend, and a mentor who I have asked to for accountability in this area.  If I needed prayer for my marriage or if there was intense fellowship that I felt I needed advice on, I first and foremost go to God and ask Him to search my heart.  If I still feel like I need guidance or counsel, I go to my accountability partners who will kindly and wisely point out where I need to approve or even tell me how silly I am being.  This is what works for me.  "Better is open rebuke than hidden love. Wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses" Proverbs 27:5-6 That means that a friend won’t be false and pretend things are all right when they aren’t. They will openly and respectfully love their friend enough to risk their friendship and help their friend.

My prayer for you ladies tonight is to take a stand for your man and your marriage, encourage and build up your man do not tear him down.  My prayer is that you too will choose your friends wisely.  My prayer is that you will be wise woman... the Bible says The wise woman builds her house, but with her own hands the foolish one tears hers down. (Proverbs 14:1)  My prayer is that you will seek God first all the time no matter the circumstance.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Celebrating Good News!!!

I am past my 11pm rule, but I just wanted to share a couple things... more on marriage to come tomorrow.

Thank you for your prayers regarding Adam's therapy program... he has been accepted and insurance approved the brain injury day treatment program that we were hoping he was going to get into!!!  Thank you, thank you for your prayers... this is HUGE!!!  When Gloria called me today (our insurance case manager) to tell me the good news, I was ecstatic!!!  I am so excited, I get to go back to being my man's wife!!!  Gloria and I decided Adam could take a vacation the rest of the week since he has been doing amazing, and to give him some rest before hitting brain injury boot camp!

Funny story... I have been working crazy hard at feeding Adam really healthy, after all we are feeding a brain... I read some, then I try things out to see if it works for Adam.  Adam has no dietary restrictions, but he is on high protein, high antioxidant diet.  I try not to serve processed foods or anything with high sodium... this is just what I have read and what we're working towards.  Today I was reading about red meat, and I know how hard red meat is on the digestive system so I was checking to see how it effects the brain... after reading for a bit, I turned to Adam and said, "I think we're going to try not to eat red meat and only do chicken and fish, how do you feel about that?"  Adam replied "that's sad"... looks like red meat will be staying in our diet.

For those of you who are curious we did indeed feel the earthquake... being from Seattle I recognized it right away as an earthquake, but thought I was crazy since earthquakes are so rare out here.  Mackenzie quickly put into practice what she had learned from her years on the west coast... she took cover under the table and held her head.  By the time she got into position it was over... it was rather comical.

This evening Adam's buddies, Scott, Terry, and Alan picked Adam up for a guys night and for bible study.  Along with their friend Mark they had dinner, their study time and their video game time... yup, the study God's word then play video games afterwards.  Stacy, Mackenzie, I ran some last minute errands to grab the last of the school supply stuff.  We thought Mackenzie was done, but then came home from 6th grade orientation today with more supplies to get... hopefully we're done now... anyway, we walked into Scott and Stacy's and there was Adam amongst all his buddies with the best grin on his face.  He was having so much fun beating Mark at a video game.

Isn't God amazing!!!  Jeremiah 33:3 Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and will show thee great things, and difficult, which thou knowest not. What a miracle it is that Adam is doing all that he is.  It is truly only but the power of God the Almighty Healer that Adam is where he is today.  I feel so blessed and so grateful to be apart of such an incredible story of miracles that is taking place.  Glory to God.  Thank you for your prayers, God is answering your faithful hearts.

Monday, August 22, 2011

Marriage, Middle School, and Mornings

Many of you know my heart for marriage... those of you who know me well know it more as a passion and I have probably spoken to you about your marriages.  I can't help it, it pours out of me.  To me, being a wife is my highest and greatest calling.  I am a mother and I do know what a high and great calling it is to raise a child, but making a covenant vow and having the calling on my life to be someone's (Adam's) helpmate... there is no greater calling on my life.  I work very hard to invest in my marriage, I'm not just talking about doing nice things for my man, I'm talking about praying for my man, staying in the Word of God consistently and even focusing many of my quiet hours with the Lord researching His plans for marriage and His guidance on being a wife.  Listen, it doesn't matter if you didn't grow up with a good example, let God be your example, let Him teach you.  Quit with the excuses and let God reign in your marriage.

I am saddened when I hear of marriages breaking apart, my heart breaks for that marriage.  Over the last couple of days I have been exposed to a couple of marriages on the brink of divorce and I have been on my knees asking God to breath new life into these marriages.  We serve a mighty God who is bigger than any problem we encounter, He is a God of reconciliation, He is a God of restoration, He is the healer, He is the greatest counselor... He is able to speak life into your marriages.  Ladies, we need to pray for our husbands daily, we need to pray for our marriages, and we need to pray for our friends marriages as well.

Philippians 4:6,7 - Don't be anxious, but by prayer and supplication make your requests known to God. Christians should do this for all our problems, but specifically for our marriage problems. If we have proper faith in God's power, then we will pray diligently about our marriage problems.
1 John 5:14 - Be confident that, if we ask according to His will, He hears us. (Also read: Matt. 6:13; 1 Pet. 5:7)  When we have marriage problems, especially serious ones, we need to believe that God will answer prayer. If both the husband and wife are faithful Christians then they should spend much time together and individually praying for God's help with their problems.

Remember, however, that God answers according to His will. If your companion is not a Christian or is not faithful, then God will not force them to do right. He may, however, give them an opportunity to learn His will for their lives.

I will be writing on marriage this week, not only is it a passion, it's just so heavy on my heart.

It's official... I became a mother of a middle schooler today... Mackenzie doesn't start school until Thursday, but I had 6th grade parent orientation this evening.  Oh my stars, I cannot believe I have a middle schooler (well, actually, I can... the hormones are showing).  Mackenzie is so nervous about middle school, please, please be praying for her on Thursday and the weeks to come.  She is excited about her schedule, but nervous not knowing a soul at this school.  Pray for wise decisions in friends, ray that she will meet other girls that are sold out for Christ, girls that she can connect with and build strong friendships with.  It is so great to know that she can build friends here and that we won't be moving on!

Pray also for Adam and I as we adjust to this new schedule, to get Mackenzie out the door on time to school my morning will begin at 4:30 and Adam's will begin at 5:30.  Mackenzie and Adam are not morning people so this should be interesting.

Yesterday we enlisted the help of our really good friends Scott and Stacy and we walked the local shopping center.  Adam probably walked the equivalent of 1/2 to maybe 2/3 of a a mile... he is doing awesome!  Other than that we have taken the last couple of days off from a ton of therapy activities.  Adam needed a break... every moment I saw an opportunity I was giving him something to do and he was doing it all and is doing awesome... but it gave me little time to be his wife... so the last couple of days I have been focusing on being my man's wife.  I can't wait to hear whether or not he gets accepted for the day therapy program, we should hear something in the next week.  So please keep that in your prayers as well.  He's ready for therapy with therapists and not his wife pretending to be a therapist :)

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Fellowship With Church Family

Yesterday was such a busy day for us that by the time I got home and helped Adam into bed and got Mackenzie down... I was so tired I couldn't think to form a sentence let alone type my thoughts...  tonight doesn't feel much different, I am beat.

I will do a full update soon, but tonight is just going to be a quick update...

Adam, Mackenzie, and I along with my North Carolina parents, Bob and Connie, attended Triangle Community Church's night of worship this evening.  It was the first time since be before his injury that Adam has stepped foot into the church we attended and served in.  It was so great to see family, our church family.  After the service, Adam reached for my hand with a smile, and began to scan the auditorium, I knew he knew he was in familiar territory. 

Isaiah 40: 9&10  You who bring good news to Zion, go up on a high mountain. You who bring good news to Jerusalem, lift up your voice with a shout, lift it up, do not be afraid; say to the towns of Judah, “Here is your God!” See, the Sovereign LORD comes with power, and he rules with a mighty arm. See, his reward is with him, and his recompense accompanies him.

The more I accompany Adam in activities of every day life, the more I am aware of the miracle working God we serve.  A year ago I was told I would never have a normal life with Adam at home, let alone even have the opportunity to have my man next to me at home.  Now by God's supernatural power I have my man at home with me and the blessing of experiencing every day life with him.  This is a miracle.  I pray that I will never desensitize to the amazing blessing of living out a miracle with my man.    There is so much joy in my heart and to God be the glory.  We serve a mighty God!!!

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Perfect Peace

Perfect Peace by Laura Story

Stay close by My side,
Keep your eyes on Me,
Though this life is hard,
I will give you perfect peace,

In this time of trial,
Pain that no one sees,
Trust me when I say,
I will give you perfect peace,

And you'll never walk alone,
And you'll never be in need,
Though I may not calm the storms around you,
You can hide in Me,

Burdens that you bear,
Offer no relief,
Let Me bear your load,
Cause I will give you perfect peace,
Stay close by My side,
And you'll never walk alone,

Keep your eyes on Me,
And you will never be in need,
Though this life is hard,
Know that I will always give you perfect peace,
I will give you perfect peace...

I can't even begin to tell you how this song ministered to me today.  I often think about the perfect peace that God washed me with the day of Adam's injury... peace that surpasses ALL understanding, peace for the journey not just for that day... perfect peace.  I am so thankful for His peace.  In moments of discouragement, in moments when this feels like too much, in moments of trying to make sense of my shattered dreams, in moments of desperation for Jesus, in moments of sorrow, in my broken heart... HIS PEACE IS PERFECT!    God's word says he will keep us in perfect peace, we need to continue to trust in Him and keep our focus on Him... Isaiah 26:3&4 You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you. Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD, the LORD himself, is the Rock eternal.

Adam, Mackenzie, and I had the pleasure of meeting some of our prayer warriors this evening.  We have had the blessing over the last several weeks of being back home to run into so many of the prayer warriors we have never met while we've been out running around.  Thank you for taking the time to come up to us and introduce yourselves and chat with us.  Your prayers are what has carried us through and we are so thankful and blessed by your prayers.  Prayer will continue to be our greatest need.  So many of you have asked how you can help us out, please listen to me friends... truly from the bottom of my heart I mean this... prayer has been vital to Adam's recovery this far and will continue to be so.  If you want to do something for my man or for us as a family... continue to pray for my man's recovery.  Commit to praying for my man's FULL recovery.  James 5:15 And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise them up.   Please brothers and sisters... pray for my man, pray in faith and believe that our mighty God will touch Adam in that moment that you are praying for him.  We are seeing the answers to your prayers... my man is doing amazing... but we still have a long road ahead, so please keep praying.


Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Being Bold In Expressing The Joy of the Lord

Do you know how blessed we are to be living in a country where we can freely worship?  We can let the joy of the Lord manifest himself through us and express the joy of the Lord in all that we do.  We can speak boldly of our faith and share the good news openly... isn't that worth shouting praise to God that we can so openly praise and worship Him.  Yet how often do we exercise the privileges we have?  How often do we share boldly our faith?  It's not just a responsibility as a believer to share the good news, it's a privilege.  How often do we go out and share the good news with the freedom we have to do so?  For me, I know it's not enough. 

Luke 10:2 says "He told them, “The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field." 

Mark 16:15 says "He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation."

John 4: 35-36 says "Don’t you have a saying, ‘It’s still four months until harvest’? I tell you, open your eyes and look at the fields! They are ripe for harvest. 36 Even now the one who reaps draws a wage and harvests a crop for eternal life, so that the sower and the reaper may be glad together."

I pray that I will no longer miss the opportunities to share what a mighty God we serve, I pray that my eyes will be opened to those around me who need Jesus and even those who need a fresh and new anointing of the Holy Spirit.  I challenge each of you to please think of one person in your life that you could invest in and share with them what a mighty God we serve... if everyone reading this invested in one person, do you know how incredible it would be... come on friends, lets do this together, let's go out there and win souls for Jesus!

Let me tell you about my man today!!!!  He's amazing!!!  I love that I am getting to see bits and pieces of his sweet, kind personality come through.  This morning Adam woke up bound and determined that he needed to get to work.  He even told me that he needed to get to work to make sense of all that he was thinking (this was word for word).  So bright and early this morning (actually, it was too early to be bright), we started his routine in hopes to distract him from his determined mission of needing to get to work. 

I often explain to him that his job now is therapy, working hard every day to cover come this injury.  Today was the fastest Adam has ever completed his morning routine as well as the most independent he has ever been while getting ready!!!  Even after completing his routine and breakfast he was still quite determined in spirit today, so we went for a walk around the driveway multiple times.  In fact Adam spent more time out of his wheelchair today than in it.  We went walking multiple times today and I had him do all the walking in the house.  Anytime he needed something or wanted to move from room to room, he walked!  I am so proud of Adam, I am so proud of my mighty warrior, I just LOVE my man!

Mackenzie has a secret recipe... she makes this amazing dill chex mix that is so addicting and so yummy... today she and Adam worked on it together.  She allowed him to help her make, but still won't even share her secret ingredients with me... too funny.  She made the mix and some cookies to be delivered to the local fire department as a thank you for their service.  As she and Adam were busy in the kitchen I sat on the back porch (just off the kitchen) and had my precious time in the Word. I love my family so much, I love my man and my kiddo and I am honored to be Adam's wife and Mackenzie's mom.

This evening we went back to the church we attended last Wednesday evening.  During worship I just surrendered everything over to God.  I finally handed over EVERY broken piece of my heart and surrendered it all, as I was praying a prayer of submission, I heard God speak to me letting me know now that He has ALL the pieces of my heart, he can start to put them all back where they belong.  All I could do was praise Him that HE makes everything new. 

Towards the end of the service they had a prayer time, and even before I could wheel Adam down to the area designated for healing, people came to Adam and began to lay their hands on him and prayed.  Adam, Mackenzie, and I were prayed for this evening in ways I cannot describe to you all with words.  It was so powerful that it truly was indescribable.  One couple Tim and Debby Barry came and prayed over Adam, they asked me if I knew what cephalitis was (which is inflammation of the brain) and I said yes, Adam is recovering from a brain injury and I am all too familiar with that term.  Tim went on to share a tiny piece of his story, he is a brain injury survivor too and by the power of God's grace he is healed.  He shared a precious moment from his recovery... he said he didn't know who his wife was (even after 31 years of marriage) and when asked by a medical personal if he knew who this lady is (pointing to his wife) he said he responded "no, but I sure would like to"!  I just loved this story.  There standing together we all prayed for Adam's progress.  What a blessing prayer is and to be prayed over and for.  Thank you to the many of you who pray for my man every day!

Monday, August 15, 2011

A Wonderful Day

To God be the glory for all of Adam's progress and recovery!!!  What a mighty God we serve!  Adam has had an amazing day... God is working in Adam and to Him be the glory for all that He has done!  What a mighty God we serve!  Isaiah 9:6 For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

This morning, just like any other morning I asked Adam what my name is... yesterday when I asked this he said "perfect" and today he said... "I don't know, but I know I'm in love with you"  Isn't my man so sweet!  I just love him!

Adam had his first doctor's appointment at UNC (University of North Carolina).  We met with Dr. Walker who is a physitrist (a doctor of physical medicine and rehabilitation... a Dr.Chae).  She had rounded on Adam a couple of times during his on and off again 5 month ICU stay.  She remembered him quite well and was astonished at the fact that everything she asked Adam to do, he was able to do it with no delay!  He followed every command!!!  I can't help but rejoice and give God the glory!

While I am excited to say hi to the many staff that took care of Adam and I while living at UNC in those early days... I just couldn't do it today.  It was so overwhelming to be back in the halls that I paced, to see the places that I poured my heart out to God to save my man.  I just sat in the courtyard where I waited out many hours while Adam was in surgery after surgery... while sitting in the courtyard today, I just looked at Adam and felt blessed that God had answered so many of my prayers.  He is so faithful.  As I was sitting with Adam on one side and Mackenzie on the other... this butterfly flew our way.

We had an errand to run a little further away from Chapel Hill (where UNC is), and one of Adam's ICU nurses, Renee,  lives in this town we were headed to.  Renee was the coordinator for putting together the video for Adam's birthday that I shared with you all.  I texted Renee and we were able to meet up.  It was so great to see Renee and to congratulate her in person for her recent engagement.   It was fun chatting with her and catching up on life outside of a hospital.

Renee and I

We ended our day rejoining our small group live and in person!  It was good to be in the Word with family!We met at our good friends Johnny and Kelly's house and we were able to have our study outside in their screened in deck (which is my favorite room of the house), you add the Word of God into that mix and it was a recipe for perfect.... the perfect ending to a wonderful day!

I had blogged about this last year... for Mother's Day 2010, a week before our journey began, Adam made me the most amazing garden bed that sat on our deck. I didn't know what to do with it while we have been traveling the I-95 corridor, and I didn't want to leave it in the house we moved out of... Johnny and Kelly moved it to their house and made a garden this year out of it... it was so cool to see the garden bed in tack and being used.

Driving home from small group Adam reached for my hand to hold, it was the first time he initiated holding my hand!  MY MAN LOVES ME!!!  Thanks be to God for how far He has brought Adam.  I am so thankful to have my man next me, loving me more boldly every day!   I am truly counting my blessings tonight and giving God the glory... WHAT A MIGHTY GOD WE SERVE! 

Sunday, August 14, 2011

The Blessing Of A Free Spirit

Psalm 127:3-5  Children are a heritage from the LORD, offspring a reward from him. Like arrows in the hands of a warrior are children born in one’s youth. Blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them.

I love how God has used children, your kiddos in our journey... I love the stories so many of you share with me of how your children pray for my man.  There prayers are so specific and so innocent, I just love to hear these stories.

Children react in different ways when they see someone in a wheelchair... one of our good friends daughter was scared when Adam's chair was being wheeled towards her, but more often then not kids just stare, because they are trying to make sense of what they are seeing.  Today I was so touched by a sweet little girl... we were out running an errand today and this little angel walks up to Adam, touches his knee and says "Hi!  My name is Michelle, I'm 4!"  Adam turned towards her, waved and said hello.  I was so touched by this little girl.  I know as moms we teach our children to not speak to strangers for safety, and while Michelle's mom was apologizing for Michelle, my heart was so touched by her boldness and lack of fear towards something different.  Michelle continued to talk to Adam and I for about 5 minutes about her school, her bicycle, and whatever else she felt like talking about.  This little girl's free spirit has taught me to reach out and boldly share a hello, and a smile if I am feeling led and with appropriate supervision, allow Mackenzie to do the same thing... it might change a heart!  In 5 minutes this little girl's smile and friendly hello to Adam blessed me so much and forever has left a print on my heart.

I just wanted to share this special story from our day today!

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Cheerful Hearts Are Good Medicine

My favorite room of the home we're staying in has quickly become the screened in porch... I love to sit out there no matter the time of day.  If it's not too hot, more often than not, you'll find Adam out there sitting with me too.  Today was no different, we started our day out there and ended our evening on the back porch.  

Today was the most restful day we've had in quite some time... with dinner in the crock pot all day, a summer stormy day... Adam even asked for a nap, which means I got one too!!!!  In between all of this I was heavily immersed in the Word of God today.  Do you ever have moments where every time you open the Word one passage leads to another and takes you deeper and deeper into the Word?  This is how my day was, I was able to spend several hours in the Word, what an amazing gift God gave me today... time with Him.

This evening the three of us were on the porch, Adam was drawing ( I got him a ruler and a protractor and he was practicing using them), Mackenzie and I were both having our time in the Word.  I was immersed in my own study when I hear Mackenzie speaking to Adam about a cheerful heart.  She then proceeded to tell him the scripture verse Proverbs 17:22 "A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones."  Mackenzie was trying to encourage Adam to have a cheerful heart so that it would be good medicine for him... then it hit me... I have read this passage many times but this is the first time I understood it  (don't you love when God's word comes alive to you!!!)  It's not Adam who needs to have the cheerful heart, but it's us surrounding him that needs to have the cheerful hearts, with our cheerful hearts we will be good medicine.  To be cheerful means to instill with hope, joy, or comfort.  This was such a neat lesson to learn with Mackenzie, to show her the healing power our attitudes and spirits can have on Adam and others around us.  Please pray for Mackenzie and I to have cheerful hearts and that it will bring healing to Adam!

I'm sorry I didn't have the opportunity to blog yesterday... but wanted to share a few things from our day yesterday...  Adam, Mackenzie, and I became official members of the Brain Injury Association of North Carolina.  We spent a couple of hours there yesterday and we were so blessed with the wealth of information we were given.  I am so thankful for this organization and all that they do and provide for those who have suffered a brain injury and the family members that have endured the pain of the injury as well.  I encourage you all to check out the website Click HERE and pray about becoming a member yourself. 

We spent the afternoon at my best friend Debbie's house, where Adam worked with John and actually grilled our chicken burgers.  Adam grilled them!!! He flipped them and even helped pulled them off the grill!  It was so great!  Adam has really enjoyed his time with John.  The 4 of us John, Debbie, Adam, and myself watched America's Funniest Videos after dinner and it was so great to hear Adam laugh and enjoy the show.  The time that the 3 of spend with the Hagan family is really fun and special for all of us, Adam really enjoys his time with John, I get time with Debbie and Mackenzie gets to spend time with her best friend Diana (Debbie's daughter, Debbie and I met through our girls).  It was the perfect Friday evening!

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Counting Blessings

I am counting my blessings today, I just feel so blessed.  I have an amazing kiddo, and one incredible man.  Adam is feeling so good these days and he looks amazing.  It is evident he enjoys life at home, and I love having him next even more.

Adam was given a nice fresh haircut today, thanks to our friend Marijane... while Adam was in the hospital I would just buzz his hair, but now that he's home, I wanted him to wear his hair like he always has.  This takes skill that I lack... so I asked Marijane if she would help teach me how to cut Adam's hair like he used to always have it cut.  Today I got my first hair cutting lesson, thanks Marijane!

After that, we loaded up and headed to our good friends and our small group leaders Mark and Mary.  Adam was sitting at the kitchen table chatting with Mary and I as the kids played outside... when Mark walked through the door, Adam wheeled himself and followed Mark... so Adam joined Mark in the garage to work on Mark's car.  Mark even worked with Adam helping him to identify the tools.

Now that Adam is doing better, (since our whole fiasco with the medication) we decided he was ready for another grocery store adventure.  So before heading home for the evening we popped into the store and Adam walked up and down just about every isle and to and from the car... he did GREAT!!!  He was so ready to walk further than the length of our home.

Psalm 43:4 Then will I go to the altar of God, to God, my joy and my delight. I will praise you with the harp, O God, my God.  I am counting my blessings and praising God for the joy He has given me...  I am one blessed girl. 

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Questions Answered

We were so blessed today to have spent the entire day, just the three of us as a family.  It was so great, we laughed for a good portion of the day.  I am praising the Lord that Adam is back to himself from being off his medications for awhile, he was back to joking around, laughing, and just actively participating in all that we did.  He's doing outstanding!!!

This evening we attended a local church service, it was a prayer and worship service.  I just being in the House of God where the room is filled with His Spirit, what a blessing it is to worship in His presence.  The service that was preached tonight was on a subject that right before our journey began I was wrestling with and had a lot of questions around.  It was interesting tonight as I listened to the message, I felt like God was speaking directly to me, answering the questions that I wrestled with 15 months prior and over the last 15 months I continued to ask God my questions and not fully understand... but tonight God answered and I understand much better... what a faithful God we serve.

Towards the end of the service there was a place at the alter where those that were wanting prayer for healing could go forward... I wheeled Adam to the alter and I was so touched that the elders anointed Adam with oil and prayed over him, then throughout this time of prayer I was so incredibly touched to see the men that stepped forth and prayed over Adam and for his healing.  I believe there is power in prayer, I believe God is working in Adam, healing him one cell, one neuron, one axon at a time.

Tonight while I was getting ready for bed,  Adam caught my gaze, I asked what was he thinking about and he said "you'... I said, "what about me", and he said... "I am just recognizing you."  I asked him what my name was and he said, "I don't remember, but I know that I love you".  I love my man!

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Admiring My Man

Yesterday I was just sharing my thoughts about my man and I wanted to encourage you wives to step back and admire your man... what do you admire in him, I'm not asking what you love about him, I'm asking specifically... what do you admire about him.  Merriam-Webster defines admire: to marvel at.  Shortly after getting married to Adam, I began my personal library on marriage... although it's not a large library, I do like the resources that are there to pull from.  I want to share a quote from an awesome book The Politically Incorrect Wife by:  Nancy Cobb and Connie Grigsby... "To admire your husband is one of the most powerful things you can do for him. Most men prefer to be admired to being loved. If you doubt this tell your husband that you love him and study his reaction. Then after prayerful consideration, think of something you admire about him. Say to him, “There is something about you that I truly admire.” Watch his attentiveness. You will be amazed at how powerful words of admiration are to your husband. Would you consider saying to your husband tonight, “There is something about you I truly admire”? Then share it with him. Lay your discomfort aside. Swallow your pride if you need to. Ask God for a spirit of humility and sincerity. Then step out in faith and tell your husband you admire him. You can do it! And God will bless you in your efforts."

Come on ladies, even the bible talks about thinking admirable thoughts... Philippians 4:8 says Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.  My footnote says "What we put into our minds determines what comes out in our words and in our actions."  So if we're thinking admiring thoughts about our husbands, we will act in ways that he will feel admired.  If this concept is hard for you to get or you're thinking "sure that's nice, but it just won't work" then please I ask you to surrender your heart and your mind to God and He will help you keep focused on good and pure thoughts.  Pray often and get into God's word and it will be easier to keep your thoughts focused on admirable thoughts.

Tonight, I lay here next to the man I admire most... my husband, Adam Root. I am so thankful that God has given me such an incredible man. I just love him.


Thank you, thank you, thank you for praying for my man today!  He has had a great day today!  His medications are kicking back in and I can just tell he's feeling so much better.  His assessment today with the outpatient day program went really well.  Now is when we need your prayers, please pray that insurance will accept this program and will cover all the costs involved with this program.  I'll keep you updated, but I won't know more for at least a week... so hang in there with me and keep praying, please!

Monday, August 8, 2011

Blessed and Thankful

I love my husband so much... I love him in ways I never knew were possible.  I have never felt anything like this, my love for him grows and grows more every day and I am so thankful that God continues to give me a love for my man that words just will never adequately describe.  With our anniversary approaching I have been reflecting on our marriage, on my love for my man... and on our journey.  I feel blessed.

I love the moments Adam and I share where we can exchange a glance and I will know exactly what he needs or wants.  I love the moments when I am whispering something in his ear and he steals a kiss.  I love that my man tells me with words that he loves me!  I love my man!  I am so thankful for him, he is my hero... he has endured so much, persevered through so much, yet when he prays he prays with a heart of thanksgiving... he is my hero, I respect him, I admire him, I cherish him... I love him.  I thank God that I get to be Adam's wife!  Praise the Lord for the amazing man I get to spend every day with!

As I lay here next to him, I just feel a strong sense of comfort.  I love the way I feel when I am next to him.  I just love him so much.  I lay here praying for him, praying for the journey still ahead... I ask you all to pray for my man too, continue to pray for his FULL recovery. Job 42:2  "I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted."  Pray for him tomorrow as he goes for an assessment at an outpatient day program.  Tomorrow is his clinical evaluation and assessment and all day today I was thinking... it's just not fair that it's tomorrow.  It's not going to be a fair assessment since he has been off his neurostimulants for a week and he only had his first doses today.  Then I was gently reminded, that God is in control of everything.  He is in control of Adam's assessment with or without neurostimulants.  I still ask that you keep Adam in your prayers as we gear towards getting him into the right therapy program.

We had a great day here in the Root house, Adam worked on therapy, and Mackenzie and I helped him as we did our own things too.  Then this afternoon we packed up and headed to Bob and Connie's (my NC parents).  Adam worked on some more therapy tools there while Mackenzie and I got busy and made dinner tonight... well I should say, Mackenzie did most of it.  She is an amazing cook, she gets that from her dad, Adam loves to be in the kitchen cooking.   It was such a fun evening and I just love time with family.  I am going to bed tonight feeling blessed.

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Counting My Blessings and Praising God That I Am His!!!

Here I am before you
Falling in love and seeking your truth
Knowing that your perfect grace
Has brought me to this place
Because of you I freely live
My life to you, oh God, I give

So I stand before You God
I lift my voice because you set me free

So I shout out your name from the rooftops I proclaim
That I am Yours, I am yours

All the good You've done for me
I lift up my hand up hand for all to see
You're the only one
Who brings me to my knees
To share this love across the earth
The beauty of Your Holy Word

So I stand before You God
I lift my voice because you set me free

So I shout out your name from the rooftops I proclaim
That I am Yours, I am Yours
All that I am I place into Your loving hands
And I am Yours, I am Yours

Here I am, I stand with arms wide open
To the one, the Son, the everlasting God

Those of you who are familiar with one of my favorite bands, Jesus Culture, might recognize the lyrics above... it's a song called Rooftops... if you have been around me at all over the last week, chances are you have heard it in our home, in our car... on my MP3 player...  I AM HIS!!!  Romans 10:9  Because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. How can you grasp this concept and not want to shout to everyone near by that Jesus is Lord and I am His!!!  Anyone else with me?!!!

Not only am I His, but I give to Him all that I am and all that I have to offer... which on some days just feels like the pieces from a very broken heart and on other days, it's seems to be so much more.  No matter where I am (emotionally speaking), or what I have to offer... it belongs to Jesus, because I belong to Jesus.  I love Jesus so much.

I love my man too!  I love my man!!!  In spite of not having Adam's medications we have had a great weekend.  Before our journey began, Adam would take Mackenzie to Home Depot, to their kids workshop and they would create something each month, Mackenzie cherished this time with her dad and looked forward to it every month.  While Adam was in the hospital and still in North Carolina, our good friend Johnny would take Mackenzie, yesterday Adam and Mackenzie made their first project together at Home Depot since before our journey began.  Johnny and his family were their too... what a cherished memory we created yesterday.   I used to watch Adam teach Mackenzie how to use a hammer and other tools, but yesterday I watch my sweet daughter teach her dad how to use a hammer and then watch as he correctly hammered the nail in place.  Praise the Lord for Adam's healing taking place.

So to continue the saga of Adam's medications... the mail order in pharmacy company that accused me of selling Adam's medications on the black market, sent back the doctor's prescriptions.  You would think that if they accused me of making copies of the prescriptions and selling Adam's medications on the black market, that they wouldn't send me back the scripts... but they did!   This was a blessing, I went to the CVS who has been trying to help us and has been caught in the middle of some of this, filled the prescriptions... yes, we had to pay for them out of pocket... but the important thing is Adam FINALLY has his medications!  Praise the Lord.  I was worried since he had been off them for so many days, I asked the pharmacist if I should build him back on them rather than giving him his full dose... she had no clue, and I didn't know what to do... so I called Adam's pharmacist at UNC and asked and she helped me and was able to assist with all my questions and concerns.  I was so incredibly grateful for her help! 

Last week we sat down as a family to plan our week, this is becoming a weekly family meeting it helps me to communicate with Mackenzie and it begins the process of letting Adam know exactly what's going to happen each day.  So last week Mackenzie asked if she could plan something for today and I agreed.  She planned on a little family date, she wanted to take Adam to see the movie Rio.  We are blessed here in North Carolina to have a $1.50 movie theatre where every movie no matter the showing is only a $1.50.  So together with Scott and Stacy we went to the movies and saw Rio... it was so great.  I was a little worried about taking Adam since he hasn't been to the movies yet, but he loved it.  He laughed throughout the movie and really enjoyed himself.  Another great memory.  Then we came home and Adam, Mackenzie, and I played the game Life and watched a storm pass through.  I am so thankful and grateful for the blessings of getting to create family memories.  What a mighty God we serve.

Friday, August 5, 2011

Guys Night and Mother Daughter Date Night!!!

Please continue to keep praying for Adam and our battle to receive his medications.  We are having quite the time trying to get them.  They were suppose to here this afternoon and never arrived.  Then his doctor was to call in a emergency 7 day supply to a local pharmacy and did, but called in the wrong order.  So here we stand, still without Adam's medications.  Please pray for Adam as we wait for his medications and continue to trust that God is Adam's physician and He is in control.

Needless to say, with still battling for Adam's medications we took the day easy.  Fighting for his medications has been a 6-8 hour process of my day, on the phone trying to track down the doctor, talking with the prescription company, on the phone with Gloria from insurance... what else can I do, but surrender to God, there is nothing else I can do on this end, I have fought the best fight I can, and now it's up to God, I am trusting Him and I have surrendered this to Him.

The first Friday of every month, the men in our small group have guys night... tonight was the first guys night Adam was able to attend!!!  He went and hung out with the guys and Mackenzie and I went on a mother daughter date night!!!  Earlier this week I made Mackenzie an invitation to our date night tonight and together we looked forward to the time we get to spend learning about each other better. We are working our way through a book called "8 Great Dates For Mom & Daughters" It's all about guiding our daughters to see that their true value and worth come from God.  It also helps guide mothers into keeping open communication with our daughters.
It gives you discussions as well as a date plan, and tonight Mackenzie and I really enjoyed our time.  I was blessed and honored by some of her responses.  We have to evaluate one another on all different aspects of our lives and one was our daily walk with the Lord and setting time aside daily for Him.  She rated me the highest possible rating, when I asked why she said I was the most Godly woman she knew. I not saying this to be prideful, I am truly saying this because this was the highest compliment I could have ever received from my kiddo.  Tears welled in my eyes as I felt so unworthy of such a beautiful compliment.   Praise the Lord that she understands and values the importance of a personal relationship with God.  I pray for her walk to grow daily and for her to have a heart like Jesus.  I truly cherished our evening together and look forward to the first Friday of next month when we get to go on our next date!

Deuteronomy 6:1-2, 4-9 These are the commands, decrees and laws the Lord your God directed me to teach you to observe in the land that you are crossing the Jordan to possess, so that you, your children and their children after them may fear the Lord your God as long as you live by keeping all his decrees and commands that I give you, and so that you may enjoy long life. Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. These commandments that I give you today are to be on your hearts.  Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up.  Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads.  Write them on the door frames of your houses and on your gates.

Lord, I pray for your wisdom and guidance in bringing up Mackenzie, I pray that I will not just teach her, but be an example of your commandments.  Lord I pray that you will guide both Mackenzie and I to Love you with all our heart, soul, and strength.  Show us how to love the way you love.  As Mackenzie is starting to become a young woman, draw us both closer to You and closer together.  Lord, I speak against any schemes the enemy has plotted to come between us, and God I ask for You to intervene and allow our mother daughter relationship to flourish in ways we can't even begin to imagine.  Lord, I thank you for the gift in Mackenzie you have trusted me with, thank you for allowing me to be her mom.  It is I who is truly blessed and honored.  What an amazing kiddo You have given me.  Continue to give me the wisdom needed to bring her up in Your ways.  I love you so much.  And it's in Jesus' name I pray and ask these things, Amen!

Thursday, August 4, 2011

God Is In Control And Everything Is In His Timing

Where does my day go?!!!  It begins around 5:30-6:00am and before I know it, the day is gone. I had three failed attempts at trying to blog today, after the third one, it hit me... I blog at night because it's the only time I am usually not interrupted.  So now that Mackenzie is in bed, Adam is asleep, the phone is shut off... ahhh, I have a moment.

So back to yesterday...  We had a wonderful day, we went to the grocery store again, although not to buy groceries, just to give experience to Adam to walk and to scan the shelves for the items I asked for.  Hopefully the grocery store won't mind that we're using their store for therapy!  Adam did really well and was able to keep it up for almost an hour!!!

When I gave him his book and pen to see what he was going to write, without saying anything to him he started writing numbers.  He wrote the letter 8 over and over again.  It was the first time I had seen him write numbers.

Today Adam did one of his favorite activities on the iPad.  He has really enjoyed playing memory and today he did that for quite sometime, we also worked on the date today and all throughout the day I was trying to remind him and ask him.  By the end of the day all I would say is "Adam, what's the date today?" and he would respond "August 4th 2011"!!!  Go Adam!!!  I really didn't push him too hard because I could tell he was feeling a little off today (explained below).

Today we have had quite a hectic day... I have mentioned before that we no longer get the privilege of going down the street and picking up medications from the pharmacy.  Because Adam has been on these medications for sometime and will continue to be so, they are considered maintenance medications and all have to go through a mail order system.  Having had to leave Florida so quickly I was blindsided by this process.  All Adam's medications have always been provided through the hospitals he's been in, and when we left Florida we only had enough medications to get us through a couple weeks.  We since have been given prescriptions and have really been put through the ringer with the medication company. 

Before I finish my story above, let me just brag about what an awesome case manager Adam has through his company.  When you face a catastrophic accident like Adam you get assigned a case manager through the insurance company who is going to know most everything about his care and needs.  The case manager also helps advocate to the insurance company for the patient's needs.  Dealing with insurance is NEVER easy, but having a case manager like Gloria, we are so blessed.  Gloria has really had to go to battle for Adam on several occasions and I am so grateful.  Because of her she helped get Florida approved!  And because of her, she has made the quick transition back home a little easier.  I know when we make the decision for outpatient therapies, she will continue to battle her best for Adam to get him the care he needs and deserves.

But back to today... Gloria saved the day!!!  After talking with the medication company asking them why we were still missing some of Adam's neurostimulates (medications that help him stay alert, aware, and help him to stay focused and engaged.  They also help with initiation and drive) and he has been without them for 3 days (which is why he was a little off today).  I was told they weren't going to fill the prescriptions because they have been filled in too many states too many times.  The person on the other end even went so far as accusing me of possibly selling Adam's medications on the black market or consuming them myself.  I didn't know whether to laugh of cry, but before I could decide the tears fell and I just hung up on the person.  I called Gloria to see what my options were and she instantly went to work for us, but didn't get off the phone until she comforted me and help to calm me down.  A few hours later, she called letting me know Adam's medications would be arriving tomorrow!!!  Way to go Gloria!!!  The best part, she asked to talk to Adam... this is the first time she has ever spoke to him, she has fought for him, she has helped me so many times... and today he carried on a conversation with her for the first time!  I am so thankful for her and all that she has done for us.

God really does take care of all our needs, and He is really in control.  For the last several days of not having these important meds I keep praying over Adam that He will still make gains and not fall behind or go backwards.  Yesterday in the grocery store, Adam is still making gains, praise the Lord.  I have also seen the need for the medications too, but no matter what I know that God has taken care of Adam and has provided all that we need in His timing!  I know tomorrow when those medications come they will arrive in His timing.  That has been 2 consistent themes for me in this journey... everything is in His timing, and HE is in control of everything, of every circumstance, of every emotion, of everything. 

Isaiah 46:9-10 (MSG)
Think about this. Wrap your minds around it. This is serious business, rebels. Take it to heart.  Remember your history, your long and rich history.  I am God, the only God you've had or ever will have— incomparable, irreplaceable—from the very beginning telling you what the ending will be, All along letting you in on what is going to happen, Assuring you, 'I'm in this for the long haul, I'll do exactly what I set out to do,' Calling that eagle, Cyrus, out of the east, from a far country the man I chose to help me.  I've said it, and I'll most certainly do it.   I've planned it, so it's as good as done.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Finding Time

I have to find a better time to blog these days... when Adam was in the hospital and I would have to go home without him, I used my blog as a way to process my thoughts right before I would lay my head on my pillow.  But these days... I'm so exhausted and tired by the end of the day, I just want to climb into bed next to my man (praise the Lord for this miracle) and lay my head on his chest and go to sleep.  I'm too tired to process my day.  So I have decided I need to readjust and find a better time to blog.  It might mean that I blog in the morning about the day before.  Not sure yet what I'm going to do.  So if you all just hang in there with me as I figure this out that would be awesome and pray that I can figure this out.  Tonight since I am so tired, I am going to try to blog tomorrow sometime before lunch. 

As I lay here tonight I am going to bed tonight completely in awe of my God who has faithfully provided for us, who has never left me, who has carried us in the palm of His mighty and capable hands... I am thanking Him tonight for this journey, for who He is.  What a mighty God I serve.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Can You Have A Busy, Lazy Day?

Today has been a day of just hanging out at home, not going anywhere, just staying put and getting things done around here.

Adam's day was anything but lazy, he worked consistently on therapeutic activities from 9:30am till 6:00pm.  We focused mainly on memory exercises and cognitive based activities.  After Adam was done with daily therapy exercises he played a couple games with Mackenzie.   They played Connect 4 and table tennis together, as I was making dinner in the kitchen I could hear them both laughing loudly in the living room.  It brought such joy to my heart to listen to their laughter.

Mackenzie is sitting next to me as I type and both of us are laughing that there really isn't anything else in our day. 

Please join me in praying for the following prayer requests.  Matthew 18:19 says "Again I say to you, that if two of you agree on earth about anything that they may ask, it shall be done for them by My Father who is in heaven."

Some specific prayer requests for our family:
  1. Adam's continued progress in therapy and recovery
  2. For us to find the right outpatient therapy program and for insurance to cover it
  3. Adam's medications to all arrive here in a timely manner (most of his medications are mail in order)
  4. Adam's right heal to come down and his contracture to heal
  5. Adam's memory 
  6. Adam's initiation to tasks and conversations
  7. For routine and schedule to settle in quickly
  8. Mackenzie as she is getting ready to start middle school on the 25th
  9. My back and nerve pain to continue to heal
  10. Adam's FULL recovery
God has been so faithful in hearing the cries of our hearts, please continue to join me in praying for my man, it's an incredible blessing to have all of you partnering with us in prayer.  Words will never be able to truly express my true gratitude for your faithfulness in your prayers, and for your love and support.  Thank you.

Monday, August 1, 2011

Let The Joy Pour Forth

It feels so good to have my baby girl home and our family complete again!  Thank you for all of you who have been praying for her while she's been gone. 

I love God's promise of bringing joy in the morning... last week was a difficult week for me and I was really struggling... but the joy has been pouring forth today and I am rejoicing in every moment.  God's faithfulness keeps me in a continued state of awe.  Even in my darkest hours I can look back and see that He not only carried me through, but comforted me every step.  I am rejoicing in the joys and blessings of the day today.

We have been rejoicing in a good day here in the Root house... our day started with Adam's first doctor's appointment since being back here in North Carolina.  The doctor he saw today was one that had seen him before when Adam was at WakeMed in Cary.  It was pretty exciting to see their reactions to how amazing Adam is doing!

Later this afternoon we ran to the grocery store to pick up 2 items and so I decided to try something... I decided to let Adam and push the cart through the store.  One of the items I needed was broccoli, so I had him walk through the produce section and scan till he found the broccoli, then once he walked over to it I had him pick it out and put it in the bag, then the cart, he did awesome!!!  In the beginning, I was a little nervous, but he did great!  I was so incredibly proud of him, he was concentrating so hard.  When we were ready to check him I had him to the check out... he did great!  I was so proud of him and so excited!!!

Psalm 30:5 Sorrow may last for a night, but joy comes in the morning.

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