Friday, July 29, 2011


Tonight is not going to be much of a post because I am so tired.  Adam woke me this morning around 2am and I have been awake since.  I also haven't had my quiet time yet today so I am excited to open God's word and have a few moments with Him before I call it a night.

Adam and I spent the day at Bob and Connie's staying indoors to beat the heat.  Adam worked mainly on therapy tools and exercises and we all visited, it was a delightful day!  I asked Adam to write the word "dog" and he did!  Then I asked him to write the word "cat" and he did!!! He is doing so awesome!  Connie was teaching Adam to play Angry Birds on the iPad and Adam was getting a kick out of it!  When you're entering the game and screen comes up that has a button that says "play" and you click that to enter the game, I pointed to the word "play" and asked him what it said and he clearly said  "Play"!!!  Go Adam!!!

Just a heads up, I will not be blogging tomorrow I am getting my kiddo back from the west coast and I haven't seen her in 10 days... I just want to kiss and hug that kid till she tells me to stop (it won't take long).  I also just want to spend some time with her.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

So Thankful For The Holy Spirit Part 2

Like I mentioned yesterday, in my quiet time I have been studying the Holy Spirit... the more I study it, the more I am comforted.  I find myself begging the Lord for a fresh anointing.  One thing I am grabbing hold of is God's love for us never changes, our ability to receive God's love changes, and I believe that's only possible through the power of the Holy Spirit.  The more we walk through life living like the temples we are and relying on the Holy Spirit, the more we recognize God's love all around us, the more we recognize His grace surrounding us.

Jesus declares in John, 3:3 "unless one is born again he cannot see the kingdom of God”.  Jesus later explains, to be born again means to be born of the Spirit, where the Spirit of God dwells in the believer.  God Himself takes up residence inside our earthly body, God’s Spirit guiding our spirit (Romans 8:26-2).  With the Holy Spirit dwelling in us, our bodies become literally, the Temple of God. We are now separated, from this world, because God has taken residence with us, we are restored to God. We are the purchased possession of Christ, whose blood paid for our sins.

Ephesians 1:13-14  In Him you also trusted, after you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation; in whom also, having believed, you were sealed with the Holy Spirit of promise,  who is the guarantee of our inheritance until the redemption of the purchased possession, to the praise of His glory.

1 Corinthians 6:19  Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own?

The Holy Spirit is not an option in the life of the believer, without the Holy Spirit, there is no salvation. As Paul declares in Romans 8:9, without the Spirit of Christ he is not His.

Charles Stanley writes:
The Work of the Holy Spirit:
Convicts us of sin
Regenerates us
Indwells us
Seals us forever as children of God
Is our teacher
Reminds us of things when we need them
Is our guide
Reveals truth
Comforts us
Gives us spiritual gifts
Bears fruit through us

Empowers us

Isn't the Holy Spirit and incredible gift?!!! 

Adam had a bit of an off day today, so we took the day easy.   I wanted to see if he could carry over some of the things we worked on yesterday and he did!  He worked on this iPad application for writing his alphabet, the program first writes the letter, then clears the screen, then you have to write it without seeing it... Adam made it all the way through the alphabet!  He told me he didn't feel like writing today so I just let it go.  Debbie and I took Adam to the local shopping center to do some more walking... he is doing so well with walking in the mall and already he's making gains being able to go a little further each and every time!

Please pray God's covering and hedge of protection around Adam's health.  Sometimes going from the heat and in and out from air conditioning can do funny things to our bodies, so please pray that Adam will remain healthy and continue to make gains and progress forward each and every day.  Pray also for Mackenzie and she gets ready to return this weekend... I can't wait, I have missed her SOOOOOOOOOO much. 

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

So Thankful For The Holy Spirit

Earlier this week I heard a sermon on Mark 1:9-14 and it got me researching the other books in the gospel relating to this same time.  It's when John the Baptist baptizes Jesus and then the Holy Spirit descends from heaven onto Jesus.  It's at this time that the Spirit leads Jesus into the desert for 40 days and nights and then Jesus' ministry begins.  It got me thinking... we really can't make it through our most difficult trials and suffering without the power and anointing of the Holy Spirit.  When we're going through trials and suffering, how amazing is it to know we have the power of the Holy Spirit working on our behalf to give us the strength and courage we need to make it through moment by moment.  I have been studying this part of the trinity, the Holy Spirit.  I am so thankful and appreciative of the blood that was shed for me so that I too can experience the power of the Spirit, the gift of the Holy Spirit residing in me because Jesus tore the veil.  How do we ever comprehend this amazing gift.

Today Adam had another productive day and continues to make gains, praise the Lord.  (I'm positive is as a result of all your amazing prayers!)  I asked Adam to write the alphabet, I gave him pen and paper and was able to write all the way to H without assistance after the letter H, all I did was tell him the next letter since he was concentrating so hard on writing... he made it all the way to the letter R!!!!  I was jumping up and down I was so excited! Later on this evening we were driving home and I asked Adam to sing his ABC's and he sang the entire alphabet without assistance!!!  Then just to test him, I asked him to sing Mary Had A Little Lamb and he sang the entire song!  I am so amazed, his memory is coming back. 

There's more... I was working with Adam on recalling the months of the year, after giving him a start with a few months, he was able to do the rest.  Next I asked him to tell me the days of the week and he listed them completely without assistance!!!  This afternoon we were at John and Debbie's and Jack (their son) sat on the couch and worked with Adam on a sequencing application on the iPad.  It gave 3 pictures and Adam had to place in order... I was amazed how he was able to do this, he never worked with this application before and he was doing it perfectly!!!  GO ADAM!!!

Thank you all for praying for us, it is crucial and I am so thankful for your prayers.  Please keep praying for my man, your prayers are being answered!!!

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Feelings Vs. Faith

2 Corinthians 5:7  For we live by faith, not by sight.

Something I am trying to keep my focus on, keeping it on faith and not on the emotions of my feelings.  God never wants us to live by our feelings... at times my flesh takes over and my emotions kick in, loosing focus on the facts of Christ and His finished and perfect work for us.  And once we face these precious facts, and believe them simply because God says they are facts... He then takes care of the feelings.  God never gives us feelings to enable or encourage us to trust in Him.  God only gives us feelings when He sees that we trust Him apart from our feelings, resting only on His Word and His faithfulness to His promise.  Therefore I am faced with choosing between facing my feelings or facing the facts of God.  My feelings are constantly changing, God's facts are as certain as the Rock of Ages Himself, Jesus Christ, He is the same yesterday and today and forever.

Adam and I had a busy day working on therapeutic exercises.  He was doing great with some of the exercises.  Adam played memory on the iPad and it was amazing... when he recognized one that he had flipped over he was able to find the match!  He did great!  It was so exciting!

My favorite moment came when I asked him to sort these colored blocks I asked him to sort just the orange ones out...
Didn't he do great!

The best part was, while he was sorting the oranges I was visiting with Mr.Jones (whose daughter's home we are in), when I went to go back in to check on him and to see how Adam did sorting the orange blocks... here's what I found...
Not only did he sort the orange, but he grouped the other colors together... such an over achiever!!!  Go Adam!!!

After 4 hours of working together on therapies and a good lunch, Adam was tuckered out... he slept for nearly 3 hours this afternoon.  He must really needed his rest today, he never naps that long.  I personally think he was resting up for his evening of fun...

This evening Adam rejoined his Tuesday night men's bible study and guys night.  He was so engaged and loved being around the guys.  It was so fun to watch him enjoying his time with his buddies.  When I asked if he was ready to go home, he looked at me like I was the most annoying person and then responded he wanted to stay.  It's so good to be back and to be around normal life!

Monday, July 25, 2011

A Messenger Of Hope

Sorry about missing last night, I have put myself on a strict bedtime because Adam doesn't sleep through the night and he gets up quite early... so if I don't get to blogging before 11pm, it just isn't going to happen.

Yesterday (Sunday) we went over to our good friends, the Ciancarelli's for dinner... nothing like some good authentic Italian food to offer some comfort!  It was really neat to spend time with them, especially the kids since they have been praying so hard for "Mr. Adam".  We sat at the dinner table reflecting on what a miracle Adam is.  It was so exciting to have someone else get so excited with me as we observed Adam and watched him do things for himself!  It always so much fun to rejoice with others!

After giving Adam the day to rest yesterday, we started back up this morning.  Adam started with a pad of paper and a pen  and he drew.  He drew a picture that filled the entire page, this is really exciting because he has a tendency to ignore his right side, but in his drawing he did not!!!  After spending time drawing, he worked on these magnetic puzzlers (like shown below), he did one all on his own.  They are actually harder than they look, all the magnets are small and there is no guide on how to figure them together to fit inside the gray area... and he did it all on his own.  Today he did this in less time than he did on Saturday!  I am so proud of my man, he's amazing!
After a break we packed up and headed to John and Debbie's (my best friend).  Adam worked on a flash card application on the iPad while Debbie and I spent some time together, then we all packed up and headed to a local shopping center to walk.  Adam is walking so far these days, and most of the time when I ask if he's ready for a break or to sit, he declines.  His endurance is getting so much better... I think it helps that when we're home he doesn't use his wheelchair to get around, he walks from room to room. He's doing so well!  By the time we got back to Debbie's Adam was beat and took an almost 2 hour nap... well deserved!  Later on, John started the grill and he took Adam outside to grill with him, it was so awesome because it had been pretty stormy here this afternoon, and the only time it wasn't raining was the 20 minutes they were outside grilling... isn't that awesome that God gave that time to Adam with John! 

I love the reminders that butterflies serve in my spiritual life... this afternoon, Debbie called me into her garage, and there was a beautiful butterfly, while I went to take a picture of it, it flew all the way around me, it circled me completely and then landed directly in front of me... it was so amazing.

This is the exact same butterfly, isn't amazing!

I love what a faithful God we serve, faithful in always showing us that He is in control.  No matter what He is in control.  He is extending His arms wide open offering hope in ways that only God is capable of, all we have to so is accpet His love, his unfailing, never ending love.  Sending me a butterfly today was the perfect reminder that, He loves me so much to send such a beautiful butterfly as a reminder that He is still with me, still going before me, that I am still His beloved.  Some days are more difficult than others, some days are weepier than others, some days are more painful and today was that way for me, so to have God send a little messenger of hope and peace was such a gift from above... God sure knows what He's doing!  James 1:17  Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Resting In God's Word

I was doing some research on certain words in the Greek and Hebrew for my own personal study... I came across this and loved it...

According to a Greek legend, in ancient Athens a man noticed the great storyteller Aesop playing childish games with some little boys. He laughed and jeered at Aesop, asking him why he wasted his time in such frivolous activity.

Aesop responded by picking up a bow, loosening its string, and placing it on the ground. Then he said to the critical Athenian, "Now, answer the riddle, if you can. Tell us what the unstrung bows implies."
The man looked at it for several moments but had no idea what point Aesop was trying to make. Aesop explained, "If you keep a bow always bent, it will break eventually; but if you let it go slack, it will be more fit for use when you want it."

People are also like that. That's why we all need to take time to rest. In today's Scripture, Jesus prescribed time off for His wearied disciples after they had returned from a prolonged period of ministry. And in the Old Testament, God set a pattern for us when He "rested from all His work" (Gen.2:3).

Shouldn't we take His example seriously? Start by setting aside a special time to relax physically and renew yourself emotionally and spiritually. You will be at your best for the Lord if you have taken time to loosen the bow.

I just loved this, not only should be set aside time to rest, but we also need to make sure we take the time to be fed spiritually too.  Being home has allowed me to be in the Word quite a bit more this last week... and I can't tell you what that does for me.  I might be physically tired, but God truly does renew my strength each and every day.  It's important for me to rest in His Word.  Tonight I am resting in His word.

Friday, July 22, 2011

Keeping Focused

Keeping my eyes fixed on God.  In my difficult moments of my day I try to think of what I am thankful for.  I try to relate it to what that difficulty may be.  I notice when I do this any frustrations melt away... and I find myself excited for all that has taken place.  I am so thankful to be laying next to my man right now, everything else seems so minor when I put it into context of what I was facing a year ago.  Praise the Lord for all that He has done, all that He is doing, and all that it yet to come!  His hand of healing upon Adam has only just begun!

Philippians 3:14 (NLT)  I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.

I know it's hot here in North Carolina, but I am so thankful for the heat after experiencing a northeastern winter... boy I never have to do that again.  It has been some warm days here... today to keep Adam active yet out of the heat, Bev and I took Adam to a local shopping center and was able to get Adam walking!  He walked quite a long ways and he did great, even with the added distractions of music and people!  Adam really seemed to enjoy it too, several times I thought he might want to take a break so I asked if he was ready to take a break and sit in his chair and he said no. 

Later this evening we were at my best friend's house Debbie and her son Jack and her husband John got out a ton of Legos and worked with Adam on building and taking them apart.  Apparently Adam likes to take them apart!

Adam and I spent the morning touring a potential facility for outpatient therapies.  Please keep this in your prayers, we're still not sure where he will be going for therapies.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Faith, Thankfulness, and Perseverence

Let me just brag about what an amazing husband I have.  He is such a wonderful caring man and I feel so blessed that he chose me to be his wife.  He works so hard each and every day... he always has been such a hard worker (a quality I have always admired, even in spite of the long hours), these days he has to work at everything, and I do mean everything... and he never gives up.  I am amazed at what he has to go through in a day and how challenging the simplest task can be, yet my man perseveres and continues to push through the long journey he is on. 

Adam has taught me so much through this journey, he has taught me that no matter what life throws at you, fight as hard has you can to overcome the difficulties and do it with a thankful heart.  It amazes me to hear my man pray, EVERY time he prays he gives God thanks and prays with a heart of thanksgiving.  This astonishes me... for how hard he has to work at everything and how difficult life is at the moment, there my man is giving thanks to God in the midst of it all.  What an example he has set for me.  My favorite quality about Adam most definitely in the last 3 years has been his love for his Savior and being the spiritual leader of our home, I find this the most attractive quality in my man... what an example he has set for our home to give thanks in the midst of our greatest challenges... after all it is God's will for us to give thanks in all circumstances.  1 Thessalonians 5:18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

Just like any other day Adam worked so hard today.  Just because we might have therapies scheduled in a facility doesn't mean Adam doesn't get therapy.  At the suggestion of Lily his speech therapist in FL, Adam writes or draws every day.   This morning I gave him his pad of paper and his pen and he wrote 6 words!!! He then continued to draw for awhile.  Adam worked on patterns, shapes, and puzzles.  After while it was time for lunch and I put sandwitch fixings in front of him and talked him through step by step, and he made his own sandwich!!!  Next it was time for some physical therapy... one of our really good friends who has a background in physical therapy has so graciously agreed to help us out... so we packed up and went to the Bill and Bev LaPiana's.  Bev, Ben (her son), and myself got Adam into the pool!!!  He walked the width of the pool 10 times took a rest and then we worked on squats in the pool.  Adam did great!  It was amazing, he was working so hard and I was amazed to see how well he did!  And to top it off Bev made Adam steak for dinner, it was his first steak in a year and a half!!!  What a blessing it is to be back home and around our friends and family here in North Carolina.  What an incredible support system we have here, we are so truly blessed.

Adam and I became an aunt and an uncle again yesterday afternoon!!! Congratulations to Tristan and Amanada welcoming Keira Sadie Root into the world! Can't wait to meet her!

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Signs Of A Long Road and A Faithful God

I'm not going to lie, there are many moments I'm scared out of my mind, or I think I am in way over my head.  You know the quote "God doesn't give us more than we can handle"?  Well I have searched the Bible and nowhere could I find the biblical basis for this.  If anything I have seen example after example of the complete opposite... I have seen God give more than what seems possible to handle, to ensure our dependency on Him.  Look at Moses leading an entire nation out of slavery, or Joshua leading Israel to conquer their promise land, or David running from Saul all awhile praising God, or Job and all his suffering he endured, or John the Baptist, Peter, all the disciples, Paul with all the persecution they endured... so many more in the Bible. 

Biblically what I do know is this... I believe God's word to be true and Romans 8:28 says, God works all things together for good for those who love him, 2 Corinthians 1:4 says God comforts us in ALL our troubles, Philippians 4:13 says I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, Isaiah 40:31 strength will be renewed for those who hope is in Him, Jeremiah 29:11 says He has plans to give hope and a future, Joshua 1:9 says God is with us wherever we go, 2 Timothy 2:13 says He will remain faithful even when we are faithless, Matthew 11:28 says if we who are heavy burdened come to Him, He will give us rest.  Psalm 71:20 says He will restore our lives... There is so much more my Bible promises about God's faithfulness and His promises for us, this is only a glimpse, open yours and see what it says.

Adam's moments of agitation are signs that we still have a long road ahead of us, it's also a reminder that God is our source of strength, that the only way we will continue to make it day by day in this journey is by being fully and completely dependent on Him.  I know I cannot do this on my own, at times this is way more than I can handle... but my God is bigger and He is faithful, giving me the strength I need, the comfort I need... the patience I need.  Please be praying for Adam and for our family, Adam did have a very bad agitation episode last night.  He's been better today, still a little on edge.  In moments of agitation, I know God has us all in the palm of His hands and I find so much comfort in the Lord's faithful and mighty hands.  Praise the Lord for his faithfulness!  I am so thankful the Lord loves me so much that He carries us in His hands, so thankful!

Also keep Mackenzie in your prayers over the next 10 days, she flew out to the west coast this morning, pray for God's covering over her as she visits with family.  I'm missing her already, she is an incredible kid and an amazing little helper.  I am so blessed.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Back In The Land of Tar Heels and Sweet Tea

"Life takes you unexpected places, love brings you back home"

For the first time in 14 months Adam has been enjoying life at home with Mackenzie and I and it has been wonderful!!!

Last week we made a difficult decision to pull Adam out of NeuroRestorative.  After a nearly 10 month tour of the I-95 corridor from Boston to Orlando, Adam, Mackenzie, and I are finally back home in North Carolina and settling in well!!! 

As we embark this new normal, this new season of our journey the Bible verse I am meditating on for our family, Adam, Mackenzie, and myself is Psalm 71:20 Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up.

Please be praying for Adam that he will not digress being at home, but only propel forward.  Pray for us to find the right outpatient therapy program for Adam.

We have been blessed by one of Adam's good friend's sister who has graciously given us the use of her home while she is serving as a missionary in South Africa until October.  This is a huge blessing allowing us to find the right home for Adam's needs.  Please pray for us to find the right home to buy and settle into once and for all! 

I will be updating our prayer requests in the next couple of days, thank you for your commitment in praying for our family.  Prayer is vital in this season of our journey.

Monday, July 18, 2011

Happy 11th Birthday Mackenzie!!!

Can I just tell you...what an amazing God we serve!!!  He is so mighty, His provisions are truly remarkable and even play out as miracles!  I challenge you to look at the last 24 hours of your life.. how has God provided for you, how has He blessed you?  Has He given you hands to work in order to provide, has He blessed you through a friend, has He revealed Himself to you through His word, has He given you health... each one of us is being blessed by God moment by moment, my prayer is consistently that my eyes would be open to see His grace and blessings all around me.  Exodus 23:25 Worship the LORD your God, and his blessing will be on your food and water. I will take away sickness from among you.

I get so excited when I look at my last 24 hours and even more excited when I look at the last week, and even more excited when I look at the last month.  My God is amazing how faithful He has been and remains.  His timing is ALWAYS perfect.  He has blessed our family with the greatest blessing... we are together!  What a gift and a blessing this is.

One of my favorite blessings God has ever given me is my precious little girl (not so little anymore).  Mackenzie turned 11 today!  Happy Birthday Mackenzie!!!!  This last year has not been easy on our relationship, but the last couple of weeks I have really seen her true character shine through... what an amazing little girl I have.  She is such a huge helper, she has an amazing gift of hospitality, praise the Lord that He has given her wisdom beyond her years.  I am so proud of the young lady she is becoming.  I am so blessed to be her mom! 
This was our first family milestone that Adam was really able to partake in and truly participate.  At lunch today we were singing Mackenzie happy birthday and I looked over and there Adam was singing Mackenzie happy birthday too!  What a miracle this is in and of itself!  Praise the Lord that He is bigger than Adam's brain injury.  This time last year he was still so deep in a coma and we were told he would never speak again or understand language and now today a year later he's singing happy birthday to our kiddo!  Truly a miracle!  God is bigger!!! 

Happy Birthday Mackenzie Rae!

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Behind in Blogging

Sorry that I haven't updated the last couple days... blog will resume tomorrow July 18th.

Thank you for your continued prayers.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

So Incredibly Thankful and Loved

I found myself in a position today where I was in the car quite a bit and was able to think about Adam's journey, our journey, the whole way through... I couldn't help but to remember how I longed for him just do open his eyes, or wiggle a toe, anything to show that he was still inside the shell that his body had become.  My heart lept for joy and I was overcome with nothing but thanksgiving when I put these thoughts next to what I see Adam doing these days. 

For many hours today I couldn't help but to offer thanksgiving and praise to my Savior, my Lord... He is the King of kings.  What I am most thankful for is truly being held in the palm of His hands, not once has He let go, not once has He taken His eyes off of us.  He is holding us in His hands today the same as He did the minute Adam's accident took place, the same as He did when I was told Adam wasn't going to make it, the same as He did the entire 9 months He protected Adam in the coma, the same as He did through all 13 of Adam's surgeries, the same the whole way through.  Because He is the same today as He was yesterday, and will be the same tomorrow... then I know and believe that God will continue to carry us in the palm of His hands throughout this lengthy journey. 

I have so much that I am thankful for, but I am especially thankful for this journey and how God has used it to truly show me how much He loves me.  In difficult circumstances I challenge you not to ask God "why have you done this?" but instead look for the ways He is drawing you closer to Him with His unfailing kindness.  He is a loving God even in the midst of our darkest hours and most trying circumstances... He loves us beyond our capabilities to even imagine.    He loves us so much that He wants to spend eternity with us and sacrificed His own son to be able to do so.  1 John 4:9-10 says This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.

God sent His son to pay the price for my sin, because He loves me so much He wants to spend eternity with me?!!!!  I have been a believer for 6 years now and even remember hearing this as a kid, and yet it still amazes me that He loves me so much, He loves me in spite of me.  Teach me Lord to love the way you love.  I love you.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

I Am In Love With Adam's Healer!

I have so missed blogging... after blogging last night, sharing my thoughts and surrendering them to God I just slept so much better.  Not to mention all your sweet comments, I have felt so encouraged all throughout the day.  I don't know how to put into words how grateful and appreciative I am to all of you choosing to walk this journey with us.  God's provision of the body of Christ is astonishing... I'm not sure I would have fully apprecaited it or knew the power of the body without having endured this journey.  Just another reason I throw my hands in the air and praise Him for allowing me to walk this journey.  I continue to be in awe that God chose Adam, Mackenzie, and myself to be His vessels, what an honor it is. 

I would have never described myself as having an evangalistic heart, but lately I find myself in conversations with people I just met asking them, "do you know Jesus?"  I want everyone to know and hear what a mighty God we serve, I can't keep it to myself.  I have a passion brewing and it is beginning to leak from my pours, I feel as though I am a teenager and just got back from a summer camp experience totally on fire.  Only I haven't been to camp, but I have witnessed the power of God's miracles.  I know we have been blessed to see these miracles because so many of you approach the throne of grace with confidence on our behalf, pleading for my man's FULL recovery.  I found myself pondering the story of the lepard.  It was by the man's friends faith that Jesus saw and healed the man, and then there was the story of the child that was sick and the father went looking for Jesus and it was by that man's faith Jesus saw and healed the child... I believe Adam will be healed and will have a FULL recovery despite what any doctor tells me or looks at me like I'm crazy when I say that...but I know the power of the body, and I know so many of you our praying daily for my man and continue to have the faith and belief that I do... that God will FULLY recover my man. I just love my Jesus, I am in love with Adam's Healer, do you know my Jesus, do you know Adam's Healer?

Please join me in praying for my man's FULL recovery.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

We Have Been On Our Knees

I been on my knees asking God to help me live in an upright way and to extend grace to those who don't deserve it.  I know I don't deserve the grace I have received and I pray that God will give me the compassion necessary to respond it grace and love beyond what my flesh is capable of.  So many Christians are labeled as hypocrites and really, it's impossible to not be.  We are human, we are ALL sinners, finite creatures whose flesh takes over every once in awhile, but it's how we respond to those moments... do we seek forgiveness, do we truly have a heart change and ask God to purify us? 

I am working on this.  Adam and I have been wronged in a very large way and instead of the appropriate people seeking forgiveness or even acting like they care, we are being treated as though we were the ones wrong in the beginning.  The people involved openly talk about how they are Christians and even active in their churches, yet their actions are anything but kind and trustworthy.  Being treated this way has truly made me take a step back and examine my own heart.  Am I living in way that my actions as a believer are screaming louder than my words?  I pray that before I even speak, my integrity, kindness, compassion, and love shine through before a word is ever spoken from my mouth.

I ask all of you who know me... hold me accountable, please.  I also challenge all of you to allow your actions to speak of your faith and love in Jesus before any words are spoken from your mouth.  I beg you, if you have wronged someone ask for forgiveness first from God, then from those who you have wronged... please, let you light shine, don't be held captive by the enemy.  James 3: 13-17 Who is wise and understanding among you? Let them show it by their good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom. But if you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth. Such “wisdom” does not come down from heaven but is earthly, unspiritual, demonic. For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice. But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere.

Please be praying for us, like my sister said in her post a little bit ago... we are in need of your prayers now more than ever.

Adam had such a busy day today, he was in therapy from 9am-4pm straight... we are all exhausted.  Mackenzie and I spent the day with him in therapy learning and watching.  Since we have been bringing Adam home on the weekends we went through some family training today.  We worked on the floor with Adam, getting him down to the floor safely and up from the floor as well, we spent a long of time on the floor and on our knees.  Adam and I also worked on climbing stairs, he climbed a flight of stairs with 12 steps and then came back down again... he did this twice!  Amazing!  Adam also walked on the treadmill for 15 minutes...  He continues to work on his hand writing and memory skills in speech.  Today in speech he wrote my name!  I am so proud of him and how hard he works!!!  Adam has come a long ways, and we still have a long ways to go in this journey, so please keep praying for us!

Please also be patient with us, our access to the Internet is very sporadic and will be for the next week.  I will try to update every day.

Friday, July 8, 2011

Currently Without Internet

Just wanted to let all of you know that Amy is currently without internet and will update you when things are up and running again!

Thank you!!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Best Friends

Thankfully I was able to use what little technical knowledge I have and get my computer to finally reboot to work again... this in and of itself is an answer to prayer!!!

Even more of a blessing is my best friend Debbie being here in Orlando with me!!!!  She brought along Mackenzie's best friend, her daugher Diana... it's been a house full of giggles and fun the last 24 hours!!!

"In kindergarten your idea of a good friend was the person who let you have the red crayon when all that was left was the ugly black one.

In first grade your idea of a good friend was the person who went to the bathroom with you and held your hand as you walked through the scary halls.

In second grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you stand up to the class bully.
In third grade your idea of a good friend was the person who shared their lunch with you when you forgot yours on the bus.

In fourth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who was willing to switch square dancing partners in gym so you wouldn't have to be stuck do-si-do-ing with Nasty Nicky or Smelly Susan.

In fifth grade your idea of a friend was the person who saved a seat on the back of the bus for you.

In sixth grade your idea of a friend was the person who went up to Nick or Susan, your new crush, and asked them to dance with you, so that if they said no you wouldn't have to be embarrassed.
In seventh grade your idea of a friend was the person who let you copy the social studies homework from the night before that you had.

In eighth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you pack up your stuffed animals and old baseball cards so that your room would be a "high schooler's" room, but didn't laugh at you when you finished and broke out into tears.

In ninth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who went to that "cool" party thrown by a senior so you wouldn't wind up being the only freshman there.

In tenth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who changed their schedule so you would have someone to sit with at lunch.

In eleventh grade your idea of a good friend was the person who gave you rides in their new car, convinced your parents that you shouldn't be grounded, consoled you when you broke up with Nick or Susan, and found you a date to the prom.

In twelfth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you pick out a college, assured you that you would get into that college, helped you deal with your parents who were having a hard time adjusting to the idea of letting you go...

At graduation your idea of a good friend was the person who was crying on the inside but managed the biggest smile one could give as they congratulated you."

Now my, idea of a good friend is still the person who gives me the better of the two choices, holds my hand when I'm scared, helps me fight off those who try to discourage me, thinks of me at times when I'm a thousand miles away, reminds me of what I have forgotten and helps take care of the details, helps me put the past behind me but understands when I need to hold on to it a little longer, stays with me countless nights sleeping in an ICU waiting room, goes out of her way to make time for me, helps me see the truth when my emotions take over, helps me deal with pressure from others, smiles for me when I'm fighting back the tears, makes me a better person just by knowing her, and most importantly shares my passion for my Savior and understands when I text her at midnight saying "do you think it's strange that I just want to cuddle my bible?" and then gets it! I love you Debbie!

Tonight I am giving thanks to God for my best friend Debbie and for so many of you who have faithfully walked this journey with me... I know there are so many of you out there thank you all for being amazing friends and family.  I love you all and couldn't do this without you all.

Poor Adam is being over run by girls... he's working so hard that I think he's too tired to notice.   :)  Adam stood today for 10 minutes and 54.4 seconds all by himself!  I could not believe how awesome and amazing he is progressing!  I dropped Adam off for therapies this morning after he woke up and I got him ready, then I spent the day with Debbie, Mackenzie, and Diana, I can't even begin to tell you how wonderufl it is for Mackenzie and I to both have our best friends here!  Adam came home in between therapies today to take a nap,  I had to wake him up to take him back for therapy... he was not so happy about that.

Lately Adam has been enjoying his rest... yesterday I went to wake him up, I think it finally hit him, before his accident he was never a morning person... when I tried waking him up he responded "go away, I'm sleeping"  then I when I tried explaining to him that he needed to get up for therapy, he said he needed to sleep because he was sick of therapy... this just made me smile.  I don't think he's really sick of therapy, but the fact that he was communicating that he was tired and definently showing signs of his personality... I can't help but smile.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Sorry... Computer issues

Having computer problems... Writing from Adam's iPad is not as easy as I would like it to be. I will update tomorrow. Thank you.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

God Is Making A Door of Hope

Hosea 2:15 says There I will give her back her vineyards, and will make the Valley of Achor a door of hope.  I love this verse of the power of God's restoration... I was reading today in my footnote that "Achor" means troubled, yet God has turned the valley of trouble into a door of hope... amazing!   I know these last 14 months of our families journey through out own valley of trouble will be restored by God's grace, He will continue to provide the door of hope for us... He is doing amazing things.  What a mighty God we serve... Amen?!!!

Today has been a busy day for both Adam and I... Adam worked so hard in therapy today!  He walked 20 minutes on the treadmill, 10 minutes on the bike, 15 minutes on the hand bike, he stood by himself for a total of 5 minutes and 10 seconds, he practiced get up and down off the mat, and even practiced walking around the facility... and that's just physical therapy.  When he was practicing getting up and down off the mat, at one point he stood up, spontaneously took 3 steps unassisted towards me to give me a hug and kiss!  It was so sweet, even Lisa Adam's therapist was surprised... how sweet my man is!

In occupational therapy, Terri worked with Adam in the kitchen, they made blueberry muffins... they were quite tasty.  Adam enjoys being back in the kitchen!  This evening after dinner here at home, Adam cleared his plate and brought it into the kitchen it was so incredibly awesome!  My man is so sweet and helpful.

Okay... one thing that I have been super excited about for the last 3 weeks but haven't been able to blog about it until I let Gloria (Adam's case manager from insurance) know... and since I spoke to her today... I can now share with you all... Adam has been able to spend the weekends at home with us!!!  He is actually here at home tonight too, laying here next to me in bed!!!  I love having him here and next to me!  Praise the Lord for progress.... remember the day when I was told Adam would always need 24 hour nursing care... just another odd Adam has defied!  God is doing amazing and mighty things in Adam's recovery.  Every night we've had Adam at home has been a blessing and a gift.

Monday, July 4, 2011

Happy 4th of July!

And it is that, a happy 4th of July.  We as Christians know that our true freedom comes from knowing God and having a relationship with our maker because when we allow Christ to come into our hearts, His spirit transforms us, and if we allow Him, He will transform us daily.  There is so much freedom when we submit to Him and allow His spirit to grow us to be more like Him every day.  2 Corinthians 3:17 Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. 

Last year Adam was in the ICU at UNC and was unable to enjoy any part of the 4th of July... this year, he sat out in a rocking chair on the deck and watched the firework show that just so happened to be above the lake that is in front of our deck.  Can't wait to see what God has in store for this upcoming year.
Our view from our deck, Adam sat in this rocker to watch the show

Look at those people

Mackenzie and I waiting for the fireworks to begin

One shot from the night

Adam and I had the blessing of breakfast cooked for us... Mackenzie made the most amazing breakfast from scratch for us... she made this breakfast pizza, it was so so so yummy.  Adam and I both enjoyed it, plus it was so nice having breakfast made for us.  I have an amazing kiddo.

If I could encourage you all to keep praying for my family, please please keep praying for Adam's FULL recovery, he has come such a long ways and it's truly God's hand upon Adam's journey, I am am forever grateful.  Adam still has a long way to go in his recovery process and we both need your prayers more now than ever.  Please pray for Adam's full recovery, pray, approaching the throne of grace with confidence that He will answer your prayers... He already has!

Sunday, July 3, 2011

True Ramblings...

So I have discovered some new pet peeves in the last couple of weeks... I'd like to share them with you in hopes of raising awareness and not complaining.  With that being said...
  1. People who park in a handicap spot who don't have proper tags or identification to do so.  To the man today at Costco, I know you were in a hurry and didn't want to circle the lot, and honestly I don't care that you'll only be a few minutes... please consider when you do this it means I have to park in the back of the lot to leave enough room to get Adam into his wheelchair, then break my back pushing him from the back of the lot to the front of the store.
  2. The not necessary use of a handicap stall in the bathroom.  Please, please, please think twice before indulging in the larger stall because you like the extra room... by doing this you potentially take up the only stall available to the disabled and while waiting, accidents do happen.
  3. It's okay and appreciated if you offer to help... when you see us struggling with the door, or lifting the 57 pound wheelchair in and out of the car, please offer to help... what's the worst that can help, someone says "no thanks".
  4. If engaging in a conversation or asking questions such as, what happened, first (always first) engage ask the disabled person, if they don't respond then look to the caretaker for ques.  Please do not ignore the disabled or talk over them.  Even if they don't respond, it's just polite to give the benefit of the doubt.
  5. Last new pet peeve... medical supplies... it's ridiculous how expensive medical supplies are, they industry knows you need them so it seems that they charge more.  If you have any suggestions or if I'm missing something fill me in.  I do order most of what I need online and even then it's still ridiculous and it's saves me 40% ordering online than buying in a medical supply store.  Ouch.
I feel so much better having shared my pet peeves... thank you.   As you can tell from above, we've been out and about.  With Adam we try to get out for a bit everyday when he doesn't have therapy, because getting out is therapy in and of itself.  We had a productive day today, I feel like I got so much done and I could honestly feel the power of prayer today.  Thank you.  We spent most of the day at home getting chores done... I tried getting Adam to help with some of the chores but instead he decided he needed a nap (he really did need a nap, he didn't sleep well last night).  All in all it was a good day... my favorite moment was hearing Adam laugh so hard he couldn't catch his breath.  We started watching a new sitcom from Netflix called 10 Items or Less, it was hilarious.  We watched the first 2 episodes and it was pretty funny.  For you Office lovers, you will love this show.

I have a specific prayer request for this week, please pray for Adam to become continent.  Please pray that he will become aware and communicate his needs.  Please pray for theses requests this week.  I know many of you feel led to pray for specific things, and I am so appreciative and grateful for to you all for that, please just pray for the 2 items above they are so important.  Thank you.

I have been so excited seeing God move in our journey the last few days... He is truly a God of provision and restoration, I have found myself in complete awe for all that He is doing in providing for our family.  I love that He uses the body of Christ to meet the needs of the body.  I can't thank you all enough for allowing God to use you as His provisions for our family.  God has truly provided for us the way that He provided Manna in the desert.  "The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want." Psalm 23:1

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Loving My Man and My Kiddo!

Enjoying my family and taking the night off.  Continuing to trust God every moment of this journey.

Friday, July 1, 2011


This is what my Bible says about trust...  (please read each verse, don't just skip ahead, these verses are so powerful)

Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding
Jeremiah 17:7  But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him.
Psalm 28:7  The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him.
Isaiah 26:4  Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord himself, is the Rock eternal.
Psalm 37:3  Trust in the Lord and do good;
Psalm 62:8  Trust in him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.
Psalm 56:4  In God, whose word I praise— in God I trust and am not afraid.
Psalm 37:5  Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him
Psalm 125:1  Those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion, which cannot be shaken but endures forever
Nahum 1:7  The Lord is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him,
Romans 15:13  May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

1 Corinthians 4:2  Now it is required that those who have been given a trust must prove faithful.

Trust... is a difficult thing, once broken there is no quick fix, no easy remedy, very little peace...

Trust is something that I have struggled with since childhood... I know God is using Adam's accident even in my own life to bring healing to the wounds of my own heart.  Having to consistently trust Adam in the hands of caregivers has been an ongoing difficult process in this journey and continues to be so. Lately I have been wrestling with this, I had to once again out loud over and over again say to God, I trust you, I trust you. I don't have to trust his caregivers, especially when trust is anything but warranted... but I do trust that my Savior is with Adam and will continue to carry him in the palm of HIS mighty and capable hands.  This is where I need the body of Christ to partner with us, please, please pray for Adam and those who are caring for him.  Pray for their integrity, for wisdom, and for the truth to always be spoken.  We know no matter what... truth ALWAYS prevails.

Merriam-Webster defines trust as assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something.  The key words here for me is assured reliance on the character of someone... this journey has shown me daily that we live in a fallen world, I am saddened by the amount of people who lack integrity to do the right thing.  I pray that God will help me to live in such a way that my integrity will not be questioned the way that I have come to question so many.

All this to say, there is forgiveness even when trust is broken, however it still takes a journey to rebuild trust and most of the time trust is not given without the ability to allow God's grace to manifest itself in us to be able to extend grace.  I am praying tonight that God's grace will manifest itself through me to extend grace to those who have lacked integrity.

It has been great to spend time with Adam... oh how I missed him, and he clearly missed Mackenzie and I. He hasn't stopped smiling since he saw us.  I love my man!  He has continued to excel this week in therapy and I have been thrilled to hear such great stories of how well he has done, and how much progress he has made even in a couple of days.  Praise the Lord for the strength He has given Adam this week!  So much to praise God for, and I am on my knees tonight truly giving God thanks and glory for all He is doing this moment in our journey!

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