Sunday, June 12, 2011

Praying For Faith While Enjoying My Time With My Man

These lasts few days I have experienced such a mixture of emotions.  I have enjoyed the last few days to just be with Adam, it's really been the first time since Adam's accident that I have really had time with just him... to focus on just him and his care.  I have cherished these moments, I have loved the memories we created, and the laughter we have had.

I am so thankful for these moments and this time with Adam, being back in the hospital these last 5 days have been a very emotional struggle for me.  I am struggling with the set backs that Adam is having to go through.  It's hard for me not to get upset when I think of how far Adam has come.  I found myself sitting in Adam's room struggling to see the purpose of this speed bump in our journey, reading my bible, asking God to show himself to us... the next thing I knew the room lite up by lighting and a thunderous roar rattled the window.  I realized that God is so present all the time and everything happens in His timing.  Adam's hospital stay this time is apart of God's timing.  God timed this hospital stay in Adam's journey for such a time as this and this is what I am holding onto.  Faith means having faith in His timing. 

When reflecting on this I realized my struggle wasn't discouragement, my struggle was my faith.  Matthew 17:20 He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."  Tonight I am praying that God will give me the faith that I need for tonight, faith that I need for this moment.  I'm asking for faith to wash and stain my unbelief. 

Adam and I had a good day today.  I was able to get Adam sitting in the chair in his room for a couple of hours today.  It was good to see him up for awhile.  The occupational therapist came by and did his evaluation on Adam, but didn't have enough time to really work with Adam.  I am looking forward to tomorrow, when full teams will be back.  The plan of action will be decided upon and Adam will be able to get some form of therapies tomorrow.  Pray that we can figure out what's going on with Adam's body so that we can keep moving forward in this journey.  Pray that Adam will be able to pick up in therapies where he left off.  Pray that we won't loose ground, but that this resting time Adam has had will be a bolt of energy to push him forward.  Please keep praying for my man... thank you for praying for my man and for our family.


Anonymous said...

What comes to mind in your saying "speed bump, or set back", Was something I heard in a Beth Moore teaching. She said two steps forward, one step back, you are still going forward. Yes, it is not what we want, BUT as you have said, Father is in control. When you see the top side of your tapestry, you will seewhy He has woven these threads into the picture of yur life. I love you and continue to trust Father for you and your sweet family. Marion

Mary Strynar said...

"Faith means having faith in His timing." What a powerful thought. I am standing in prayer for you. I thank God for showing you His presence in the thunder. Dear Lord increase our faith. Thank You for Adam and Your mighty work in his life.

The Anne Carter Pages said...

Dear Amy and Adam and Mackenzie,

When Pat was back in the ICU in January it felt very surreal and...totally unnecessary . We would pass Spaulding every day on our way into MGH and we just couldn't wait to be back inside that crazy place! Can you imagine?

I know that Adam will get through this and that he will take those proverbial two steps forward when he does. We are thinking of you three way up here in New Hampshire! Good luck and hope to hear some good news soon.

Anne and Pat and the Mahoney Fam

Anonymous said...

Sweet Amy, how I pray for you and Adam both to receive the comfort and refreshment and peace you and Adam need during this part of GOD's journey of faith for your family. I thank GOd that you heard His thunder reminding you He is there for your sweet family and nothing has slipped by Him. He sees your aching heart... aching with love for your man and aching with love for the God who gave you and Adam to one another. ..... aching with the how's and why's and when's...
for Adam's healing.. You have been so faithful - so full of faith and praise and yet always the Father can give you the "more" that you need to sustain you and Adam through this speed bump. Standing in prayer with you sweet friend. Love, Jan

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