Sunday, October 31, 2010

Hallelujah Night


Happy Halloween!  I am still in denial that it's fall let alone Halloween.  For me time has stood still since May and I can't believe seasons have come and gone.  Adam has always enjoyed pumpkin carving, he's quite good at it.  We have always enjoyed pumpkin patches and corn mazes, this is the first year we didn't do either.  We went to a local stand and bought a pumpkin, I couldn't bring myself to carve one, but I did watch Mackenzie do an amazing job.  She carved two lambs and a cross in the middle, it's a good lookin pumpkin.

Mackenzie and I visited a church this morning, the church was great and very welcoming.  I was so impressed with this small church.  For being small in size, they are doing an amazing job at supporting church plants to spread the gospel.  It was great to be in the presence of God this morning.  Listening to this church and with our church in NC talking about Acts, it has really challenged me to be bold in my faith.  I want to live my faith out loud with no reservations of what anyone will think. 

I was talking with a nurse yesterday and sharing my faith with her and then today she was Adam's nurse again and there was a nursing assistant in the room and they were talking about how I went to church and the nurse said to the assistant, "watch out she got me yesterday"  I was thinking, I didn't get her yesterday, but God must have for that reaction.  Sharing the gospel can be intimidating, but one God has prepared me for this journey is my almost 2 years volunteering at a pregnancy resource center.  I learned there that sharing the gospel meant sharing what God has done to redeem me and the price he paid to offer my grace.  When I look at all that God has done for me, especially in the last 6 months, I stand in awe of Him and I can't help but share what He has done.  It seeps out of me, I am so excited and amazed at how he has taken care of all the details of this journey as well as how far Adam has progressed, that I just want to shout it from the rooftops.  AWESOME IS MY GOD, MIGHTY IS MY GOD!!!   1 Peter 3:15 "But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect"
Adam's doctor, Dr. Chae, invited Mackenzie and I to his church for their Harvest Festival so we went and had a really good time, we met a lot of nice people and enjoyed a great play and a time of fellowship.  I added some pictures, but you will have to forgive my camera, this is why I haven't been posting pictures lately, my camera is officially on it's last leg and keeps going in and out... anyway, I am adding to the list of things that have decided to go on strike since Adam's accident.


 Mackenzie's pumpkin

 Mackenzie and I at Berkland Baptist Hallelujah Night

 Mackenzie and Jessica, Jessica is dressed as silly bands, I thought this was such a great costume and Mackenzie is a hippie (we just met Jessica tonight, it was so fun getting to know her)

Mackenzie and I 

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Balance

Trying to find the balance of being mom and wife right now has been very difficult.  Mackenzie is getting nervous about school on Monday and with this transition, she has been acting up.  Please pray for her, life is so not a typical kid life right now and she is struggling with it.  Please pray that she would be able open up and talk about all that is getting to her rather than acting out in anger and frustration.  Today I have had to work hard at patience and peace with my sweet kiddo... and the bible verse that I have been focusing on is Philippians 4:8 "Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things."  I pray that I can think about such things and keep my focus on the end prize, seeing my Lord's face.  

Adam had another great day.  He had PT and OT today... on the weekends his therapy times are cut in half, so it gives him a break, but still keeps him in routine.  In between therapies today I buzzed Adam's hair, read to him, and hung out.  We had a wonderful time today.  His room is starting to feel like home again.  The last couple of days Mackenzie and I have been hanging things back up on the wall, and tomorrow Mackenzie will be rehanging all the postcards!  It's not too late to send us a postcard.  When I was hanging pictures today Adam looked at every single item that I hung.  At one point I was hanging his Halo poster and then I handed him his X-Box controller.  He looked at the controller started to push the buttons and looked up to the poster.  I told him it would only be a matter of time before he would  be able to play again!  Adam is getting so close to talking, he is moving his mouth, his tongue, and vocalizing so much... he has even begun to get frustrated when he's saying something and it's not coming out right.  Please continue to pray specifically for speech and the ability to process.  He is so close to talking, even his speech therapists, Brooke, and Meredith, agree.

I am exhausted again tonight, and I apologize for the short post, but I need to get to bed.  Good night!

Friday, October 29, 2010

Prays, Patience, and Comfort

Adam has had a great week and I am so proud of him and how hard he has worked this week!  In speech therapy with Brooke, Adam had a wash cloth on his forehead, Adam reached his hand up and leaned is head forward to take it off his head!  In physical therapy with Erin, Adam stood for the first time with some assistance.  Normally Adam had been standing on the tilt table, but Adam has been doing so great on the tilt table that Erin decided to try to see if Adam could most of the work on his own.  So one therapist stood in front and one in behind and they helped hold Adam up as he stood on his own two feet!!!  It will only be a matter of time before Adam builds the muscles back up to be able to stand without assistance, I am so incredibly proud of him!

I know through all of this God has been teaching me patience and trust. Patience for the long road of this journey. I was reflecting on my need for patience in trusting that God will restore Adam and trusting in God and his promises for us. It's amazing how God will give me the same message in multiple ways. In my quiet time today, through a Veggie Tales I watched with Mackenzie, and through a letter I received in the mail today. Romans 8:24 & 25 "We were given this hope when we were saved. (If we already have something, we don’t need to hope for it. But if we look forward to something we don’t yet have, we must wait patiently and confidently.)" I will wait and will continue to wait patiently for Adam's FULL restoration. I will continue to lean on God as my source of hope while we wait as he knits Adam back together one neuro at a time.

Mackenzie and I had a busy day, we started our day in the hospital, went to the doctor's office to get her a physical for school, went back to the school to finish registering her for school and meet her teacher, then we went back to the hospital for the rest of the day.  Mackenzie is excited to start school on Monday, please pray that she will continue to be excited as Monday approaches.  She also had to have a shot today as part of her physical for entering school in Massachusetts, and she's a little sore.  Dr. Geller, Mackenzie's pediatrician here in Massachusetts has been amazing, thank Dr. Geller for all that you have done today.

Many of you may remember the sweet lady I met at UNC whose husband had been in the Cardio-Thoracic ICU for months, her name was Linda Byrd (click her name to read about her)... anyway, please pray for her and her family.  I received an email that after being discharged from UNC they spent 2 wonderful months at home, then her husband Jack took a fall and sustained a fatal injury to his head.  He passed away earlier this month, please pray for my friend Linda, my heart just breaks for her.  I have been grieving for her today.  I am so blessed to know that her husband Jack is in heaven, that he had a relationship with his Savior, praise the Lord. 

Lord, we don't know why you took Jack home to be with you when you did, but Lord we trust in your plan and this was just part of your plan.  Lord, please bring comfort and peace to my friend Linda as she grieves the loss of her man.  Help her to find her hope, strength, and joy from you God.  Wrap your arms around her and hold her through the coming weeks with the holidays approaching.  May she experience you and your tangible love in ways that she has never experienced before.  We thank you for your promise that we are not alone, that you will never leave us nor forsake us.  We thank you that your words says you comfort us, Lord comfort my sister tonight.  Be with Linda as she tries to make sense of all of this.  Lord even with broken hearts, we give you thanks, and praise your holy name, because we know you are in control and you have plans for hope and to work all things for good, we hold onto these promises tonight. Thank you for your promises and for your word that brings so much comfort, we love Lord, Amen.

Linda and I 

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Great Is Thy Faithfulness

Hopefully I can get some rest tonight and tomorrow I won't be so exhausted so that I can write a normal blog post, but tonight is going to be another quick update...

Today when I walked into Adam's room he looks at me and smiles!  My man knows me and loves  me so much!  Adam had a great day in therapies.  Every facility uses different measuring tools to gage Adam's coma level, at Spaulding they use the Coma Recovery Scale rather than the Rancho Coma Scale.  The Coma Recovery Scale measures out of 23, (23 meaning coherent) when Adam was admitted a week ago he measured at a 10, but every week his therapists reevaluate him and this week he measured a 13!  Already he is making so many gains, I am so impressed and so proud of him!  GO ADAM!!!

I have been praising God today for his continued faithfulness of meeting our needs on all levels, trusting in Him is not easy, but His blessings and promises make it worth it all!  I love that I can see God at work all around me and that He has been so faithful to walk this journey ahead of me, allowing me to step in His footsteps... praise God that He has prepared the way, shown me that this is where we are meant to be, blessing us beyond our needs.  God is so faithful, Great is thy faithfulness.

Great is Thy faithfulness!

Great is Thy faithfulness!
Morning by morning new mercies I see.
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided;
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

North Carolina to Boston

Tonight is going to be very quick update.

Adam is doing awesome!  Dr.Chae started Adam on a neuro-stimulant and he has adjusted some of Adam's other medications and we are seeing amazing results!  Adam is so much more alert and awake and is aware of what's going on around him.  I missed his therapies today (I will explain in a second) his therapist called me to update me on his therapies... Today during occupational therapy with Becky, Adam reached for a washcloth, picked it up, and raised it to his chin to wipe his mouth!  GO ADAM!  Adam had a great day, thank you to those who sat with him and thank you Sharon and Matt for letting me talk to Adam on the phone!

I flew into North Carolina last night to pick up Mackenzie, our cat Hobo, and my car.  We left NC and headed for Boston.  Mackenzie makes such a wonderful and fun road trip partner, originally before Adam's accident Mackenzie and I were planning to drive from NC to Seattle this summer... well plans changed, but it sure has been fun road tripping with her up the east coast.  We spent a good portion of our day talking about life, and praying for Adam and asking God for a miracle.  Mackenzie has such an amazing heart and I love that I can hear it when she prays.  Luke 18:1 "Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up."  Thank you all so much for praying, please don't give up praying for Adam's miracle, every day miracles are occurring in his healing.  God is so good!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Giving Thanks Even From The Loins Den

Adam amazes me, he is the strongest man I know, he doesn't give up and he continues to work hard every day!  Today Adam has been moving his head a lot more.  He moves to look at what causes noises or even voices he recognizes.  To during occupational therapy with Becky, Adam was working on sitting at the edge of the table in the gym and she had him lean on his side and worked with him to pull himself up, he did it!!!  He pulled himself up one of the 3 times they tried.  I am so proud of him and how hard he works.  Adam continues to make gains every day we are here, and I ask you all to please keep praying that Adam will continue to make gains leaps and bounds ahead of where he is now, I ask that you please keep praying for Adam's miracle.  Pray for FULL recovery, it's coming!  Pray continuous for strength and patience in the journey for all of us.

I have been asked several times in the last 2 weeks to post a recent picture of Adam on this blog... I want to explain why you haven't and won't see any pictures of him.  First let me assure you, he looks like Adam.  Everyone comments that he looks so good when they do see him.  Adam is a very humble and private person, and I don't feel right posting his pictures when he's not quite feeling like himself.  So out of respect for my man, until he can give me permission to post pictures, I will not be posting any.   I have been taking pictures of this whole journey so when he does give permission I will share the journey.  Until then, please understand that I want to respect my man and honor him the way he so deserves. 

Also, if you would like to send us letters or care packages, please send them to Adam's hospital room (your letters and packages have meant so much and really bless us a great deal, thank you). Everything sent gets read and shown to Adam, if you haven't sent a postcard in for our postcard wall please send it to the Adam's room.  We are in the process of rehanging all your wonderful postcards.

Spaulding Rehabilitation Hospital
Attn: Patient Adam Root Rm: 817
125 Nashua St.
Boston, MA 02114

Today for me has been a little difficult, today has been a day where I have experienced a number of flash backs to the day of Adam's accident.  Each time this happens I remember more details from the scene and from that day and it is extremely painful.  (For those of you who may not know, Mackenzie and I both witnessed the accident and saw the whole thing unfold).  I have had to hand my thoughts and heavy heart over to God today and trust that He sees my pain and He can work all things for good and for His glory. 

I pray that Adam would cling to God right now and that he too will trust in God for what He has planned for our future.  I pray that we both are able to trust God like Daniel trusted when he was in the loins den.  Daniel 6:23 "The king was overjoyed and gave orders to lift Daniel out of the den. And when Daniel was lifted from the den, no wound was found on him, because he had trusted in his God."  I pray that when Adam is lifted from this den, there will be no sign of injury, no wound found on him... Because GOD IS BIGGER than this brain injury. In this moment I want to give thanks for all that has happened in this journey, there is truly so much to be thankful for, God has done so much and has worked through so many of you... I am so thankful.  I am so thankful that God has gone before us every step of this journey, and prepared those around us and those in charge of Adam's care, praise the Lord for his preparation.  Praise the Lord because He is worthy of all my praise.

Monday, October 25, 2010

Blessed Beyond The Needs

I am so amazed that God has not only met our needs, but has blessed us beyond the need.  It has become very apparent that we are in Boston for a reason and that this is right where God wants us.  He has prepared the way and has walked before us, thank you Jesus!  Everything is coming together.  I went to Mackenzie's new school today and got everything I needed to get her registered.  I was able to meet with the guidance counselor (Mrs. Gates) for a long time and she was such a huge help in getting us adjusted into this community.  The school wants to do everything they can to help this be an easy transition for Mackenzie.  I am so excited, it just feels like such a great fit for us. Mackenzie and I will get to meet her new teacher on Friday and she will start school on Monday.  The This school reminds me so much of Apex Elementary which is where Mackenzie has been going in North Carolina.  The town we are living in even reminds me of Apex, NC.

I met with Adam's doctor today, he is the one who runs the program that Adam is in.  His name is Dr. Chae.  Dr. Chae rounded on Adam this afternoon when I had stepped out to Mackenzie's school.  When he saw me return he stopped me in the hall and asked if I was a believer.  He said he noticed my Bible sitting on my chair in Adam's room and was just curious, we had an hour long conversation about our faith.  Dr. Chae went on to tell me he is an ordained pastor and knows that our paths crossed for a reason.  He told me he prays for all his patients and prays for Adam.  He agreed with me that God is bigger than this brain injury. 

Dr. Chae went onto explain that in John 2 went Jesus turned the water into wine he told his servants to fill the jars with water and when they went to pour it it turned to wine, Dr. Chae said that he views his job as God's servant filling the jars with water, but it's God who does the healing!  Praise the Lord!  He asked if he could follow me to Adam's room and pray with us.  So we went into Adam's room held hands with Adam and Dr. Chae prayed for all of us!  God is so good!  I am so grateful that Dr. Chae is such a willing servant of the Lord and is so obedient to God's calling.  Truly amazing!  John 2:7-9 "Jesus said to the servants, "Fill the jars with water"; so they filled them to the brim. Then he told them, "Now draw some out and take it to the master of the banquet." They did so, and the master of the banquet tasted the water that had been turned into wine."  Please join me in praying for Dr. Chae and his team as they provide care for Adam, pray that God will give them the wisdom they need to make the best decisions for my man.

Please continue to pray for Adam's cold, he's still fighting it.  He didn't sleep well last night so he was very tired today for therapies and had a harder time participating.  Tomorrow is a new day and with some rest tonight Adam will be good to go tomorrow!  Good news of the day, Adam's PICC line was removed!!!!  No more IV's or blood draws daily!  Go Adam, he's getting better every day!!!

Sunday, October 24, 2010

I Love My Husband

For those of you who know me well, have seen me the last couple of years where a particular tee-shirt that says "I love my husband".  I was wearing it today and it seemed to strike up quite a few conversations among staff at Spaulding.  I was able to share with each staff member what an amazing man Adam is.  I hit the jackpot when I met and married Adam.  I always tell him he's an all in one kind of guy, one of kind that's for sure.  He's not just a computer programmer, he maintains our vehicles, he builds things, he can fix anything, he cooks (those of you who have had his cooking know how amazing it is!), he's wicked smart, he's an awesome spiritual leader of our home, a incredible provider, he's an amazing father and the best husband a girl could ever dream of.  I LOVE MY HUSBAND!  Ladies, please, please I challenge you to make a list of all the things that you love and admire about your husband and write him a letter telling him.  He needs to hear it.  I am so grateful that Adam has heard me say all the things I listed above.  Not one moment was taken for granted.  Please let your man know what he means to you and profess it the world that you love your man.

This morning I read Adam several Psalms, one in particular I read over and over because it brought such comfort to me.  Psalm 103, please read this Psalm sometime this week and praise Him for the good things he has done for you.  My footnote for the Psalm 103 reads "David's praise focused on the good things God was doing for him.  It is easy to complain about life, but David's list gives us plenty for which to praise God-he forgives our sins, heals our diseases, redeems us from death, crowns us with love and compassion, satisfies our desires, and gives righteousness and justice.  We receive all of these without deserving any of them.  No matter how difficult your life's journey, you can ALWAYS count your blessings-past, present, and future.  When you feel as though you have nothing for which to praise God, read David's list"  I am only going to highlight a section of Psalm 103, but I challenge you, when you finish reading please read this Psalm and praise Him for your blessings.  Psalm 103:2-5 "Praise the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits- who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's."  PRAISE THE LORD, that He heals!  Amen?!!!

Adam had a good old fashion lazy Sunday... we read, listened to music, watched part of Braveheart (one of three of Adam's favorite movies), laid in bed cuddling together.  It was a good restful and relaxing Sunday.  While I was bathing Adam this morning he had a monitor sticker on him that was no longer necessary and has been on for several days.  I usually don't remove them because it's painful for him and I don't want him to associate me with pain... anyway, I removed it and he lifted his arm up and looked at it and then set it back down and then lifted his arm again and looked at it then at me... I was excited to see that he understood and sad that he knew it was me that caused him pain.  I was told by a resident at UNC that Adam would never be cognitive enough to let me know he feels pain... WRONG... he knows and gets it!!! Praise the Lord Adam is defying all odds!  He's amazing and I love my husband!

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Thank You For Your Prayers!

Thank you all for your prayers!  Psalm 30:5 "weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning."  Joy came for me as God opened a door and once again provided all that was needed... Someone who has been a part of this journey (and has asked to remain anonymous) has offered their home to Mackenzie and I!   The best part about this is it's in an area with top rated schools and I will be able to register Mackenzie for school on Monday!  Matt and Shannon have been so generous in opening their home to us, but the schools weren't great and I didn't feel comfortable settling on a not so great school. (Thank you Matt and Shannon for all that you have done.)  I was concerned about signing a lease when I'm not sure how long we will be here and for now until I have a better idea of how long we'll be here this will be a perfect situation to allow Mackenzie to attend school, yet I will still be super close to the hospital!  Praise the Lord for answered prayers!

Adam had a good day today, it was restful and not a rigorous as it is on the weekdays.  During occupational therapy today Adam reached for a tennis ball that was sitting next to him, this is huge because, this is the first time I saw him go after an object intentionally.  He has amazed me this last week with how much head control he has.  He has been holding his head up with no problems.  He has been consistently turning his head to the left and will bring it back to center, but he is very sore in turning his head to the right so please be praying for that.  Despite the wind, it was a great day here today and I was able to take Adam for another walk.  We enjoyed watching boats in the Charles River, and the trains come into the North Station.

Adam rests every afternoon after therapies and to allow him to get maxium rest, I have been taking afternoon walks.  I find that this is good time for me to walk with God, literally speaking.  I walked all around Beacon Hill today which is a cute part of town very close to the hospital.  I walked till I got to a park and I sat and had a chat with God, some tears, some laughter, but sweet time with the Lord.  I I find myself craving time, I find that I can't get enough of Him.  I truly do find that on the days when I seek Him with all my heart, it is then that I find Him surrounding me and even holding me in His hands.  Sometimes I envision that I am walking down the street holding my Father's hand while I am sharing my heart, thoughts, dreams, hopes, and tears.

I have cherished my evenings with Adam, when I return from my walk I have been climbing in bed with him and reading to him.  That is my favorite spot to be is right next to him where I can feel him.  We have a king size bed at home and we always joked that there was no need for a king considering we always are snuggled closely together, and we would joke that we could probably fit on a twin... it's been proven, we definitely fit on a twin and most of the time comfortably.  I look forward to the day where we can share our bed together again and in our home, but until then... Adam will have to continue to put up with Mackenzie and I climbing in bed with him, sometimes both of us at the same time.  I love my family, and I can't wait to see what God has planned for us.  Adam's FULL recovery is in process, please continue to pray for his FULL recovery. 

HOPE CAFE TONIGHT AT 7:30PM

I forgot to mention in my post yesterday that Hope Cafe in Raleigh, NC is hosting Friday's VeilFriday's Veil has agreed to give a free copy of their CD to anyone who donates to Adam's Care Fund.

This is such an honor and a blessing, thank you Friday's Veil and Hope Cafe. 

Mackenzie will be there representing our family, as I am in Boston with Adam.

Please Come Tonight!

Friday, October 22, 2010

God Will Supply Our Needs

There is so much uncertainty right now it seems overwhelming.  Where are we going to live, trying to figure out what to do for school for Mackenzie while I am trying to figure out our living situation, what's the next step and plan in Adam's recovery... just so much to think about and process and it's not easy.  I remember when I thought it was hard to decide what to make my family for dinner, or my single mom days... I thought those were tough, but all of this seems like too much.

Thankfully I have such dear sweet sisters and brothers in Christ who have been so obedient to God's pushing to text me, email, or comment on the blog at the right moment.  Yesterday it was no different, I was texted by someone, that God will supply all my needs, she went on to encourage me saying He doesn't promise to meet some of our needs, not many of our needs, but ALL our needs according His riches and glory.  I have been clinging to God's promises today as I have been processing all these decisions that have to be made.  I had to remind myself that God has already paved the way for this whole journey, not just to get us here at Spaulding but every step of every day, and I pray that I can obediently walk in His steps. 

Today I spent a good portion wrapped up in Adam's bed with him.  I just needed to be near him, laying my head on his chest and hearing his heart beat.  When I do this and close my eyes it's like nothing in our life has changed.  Being with him and near him is such an amazing feeling.  Adam shows me every day how much he loves me by the way he looks at me.  I was reminded today of a time early on in this journey when Adam didn't even open his eyes, and now not only does he open his eyes, but he is so very alert and aware of his surroundings.  Oh how I am praising the Lord tonight that Adam's eyes are open and how they express his love for me.

Each of the therapists commented today how alert Adam was, I find this interesting because Adam has been so much more alert since we have been at Spaulding.  In occupational therapy Adam sat on the edge of the gym table all by himself for over 2 minutes!  He has shown that he has so much head control.  His head used to fall every time he would sit up and now not only has he been holding his head it often to look around.  Adam used to have a difficult time tracking and following mid line to the right side and the last couple of days he has been able to go from left to right.  My man is incredibly amazing for how hard he works for us every day!  He's such a blessing.

Please pray specifically for speech for Adam, pray that he has the ability to understand language and speak, pray that he will begin speaking soon.  I feel as if he is close.  Also pray for the ability to process information.  Pray that area of Adam's brain is not damaged.  Please continue for a FULL recovery and for continued gains every day.  Pray for a miraculous healing.  I believe it can and will happen.  I believe in a Mighty God who is capable of all things and who is bigger than this brain injury.  I also believe in my man, I know he can do anything he can set his mind to.  I have seem him set his mind on recovering, because he fights hard every day.  I am so proud of him.  I am missing him terribly tonight.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

A Smile Is Worth A Thousand Words

Here is the story that I have been promising for 2 days now...  Our transfer and flight to Boston.

So on Tuesday once the doctors at UNC cleared Adam to be discharged, my rock star case manager at UNC Jenn spent most of her morning tracking down Sharon (the admissions manager at Spaulding) to see if they were still willing to take Adam even though WakeMed called our Tuesday transfer off.  Thankfully between Jenn and Sharon, they were able to work out all the details and we were on our way to Boston.

The medical air flight team was amazing!  Jason and Heather transferred Adam from bedside at UNC to bedside at Spaulding.  When we left UNC I called Bob and Connie (my North Carolina parents) and they met us on the tarmac at RDU where Adam's medical flight was taking off from.  Adam did great on the flight, his bed was next to the windows and he looked out the window almost the entire flight.  Jason and Heather were great keeping me company and taking care of Adam.  Adam did require a little bit of oxygen when we got up to our traveling altitude, but other than he did amazing.  When we landed it was at least 25-30 degrees cooler in Boston than in North Carolina... BRRRRR.

Once Adam arrived at Spaulding and nursing got him all settled for the evening, Adam went right to sleep he was exhausted... he was admitted into 3 hospitals in 24 hours.



 Mary, Jenn (the rockstar), Me, and Debbie saying our "see ya later"'s

 Heather and Jason

Adam had another awesome day in therapies!  He slept 10 hours last night which really helped prepare him for his busy, busy day.  He started this morning with me pestering him, I bathed him, got him dressed, cut his nails, shaved him, and then it was time for speech therapy with his therapist Brooke.  Adam responded to different sounds and tracked all objects.  The other speech therapist Meredith and the Respiratory therapists evaluated Adam and think there is a strong possibility to remove his trach by end of next week!

After speech he was off to occupational therapy with Becky.  Adam did amazing, he really likes working with Becky, he responds so differently to her then any other therapist that Adam has worked with.  He made strong efforts and even aided in pulling himself off the side she had him laying on.  He held his head up and continued to move his head in tracking.  The best part... I was encouraging Adam and when I was cheering him on he turned his head to find my voice, looked around till he locked onto me and them HE SMILED!!!!  It was his first smile in over 5 months and he gave it to me!!!  I am the luckiest girl in the world, I love my man!  Mother Teresa once said "Every time you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing."  Love is a verb, not just a feeling, and Adam worked hard today to express his love for me, I love him and his smile!!

I was able to take Adam outside today for a walk, it was chilly but with him wrapped up and bundled good he seemed to enjoy it.  We walked along the Charles River and watched the boats and trains pass, it was great to spend some time with him outside of a hospital.

This morning Adam's view from his window had such a great view of the sunrise that I had to snap a photo, below is the picture that I took from Adam's window in his room.

I had a conversation today with the case manager of our insurance company and she is already wanting to plan where Adam goes once he's discharged from Spaulding.  At first I was thinking that's a little premature and I don't have to think about it, then she was saying there's a chance that Adam will be at Spaulding short term and we need to be thinking about future plans.  After I got off the phone with her I was a little panicked thinking I haven't even settled here in Boston and you're already talking about moving again... whoa.  Then God reminded me that He has walked this whole journey ahead of me and He will guide my steps, right now I have to focus on the moment I have been given and give thanks and rejoice that I have this moment and Adam with me in this moment.  Praise the Lord for this moment!  Matthew 6: 33-34 "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."  Psalm 118:24 "  Psalm 118:24 "This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it." 

These are scripture verses that you all are familiar with, but meditate on them. I ask God everyday that He would show me how to stay in the moment and not to worry about what tomorrow brings.  I challenge you do the same, and see what God has planned for you in this moment.  If you find yourself worrying about what is yet to come, tear that thought down and take it captive, then ask for His forgiveness in not rejoicing in the moment He has given.  I too will be working on this challenge.  Staying in the moment is difficult, yet there is so much joy in the moment.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

First Day At Spaulding

Adam's first day at Spaulding was BUSY.  I am exhausted, I can't even imagine how Adam must feel.  His day started with a 102.2 fever which created a ton of lab work to be done and xrays. Then when he returned from xrays, he got busy right away with therapies.  He started with occupational therapy with his therapist Becky.  Adam did awesome!  He squeezed her hand when he asked, he sat on the edge of the bed by himself, he responded to her every time she would ask him to do something!  Then it was speech therapy and his therapists Meridith and Brooke evaluated him through a whole series of tests.  Adam, again did great!  He followed and responded appropriate to sounds and stimulus.  Then he was able to rest for an hour before it was physical therapy with Chris (who was filling in for Erin, Adam's regular therapist).  Again he did great, he sat on the edge of the bed and held his head up the longest time yet, about 30 seconds!

My day consisted of meeting with doctors, every therapist, social worker, case manager, insurance case manager, and nurses to orientate them to Adam. It's important that the staff here know how amazing my man is, he is incredible.  Thankfully everyone who worked with Adam today talked to him like the man that he is, all of them believe in him and have high expectations and hopes for Adam.  Adam rose to the occasion of being challenged and it was awesome to see.  I am so sick of talking that it's a good thing I only have to type.  I am beat myself.  I just tucked Adam in and he is out, again I made another cozy bed for me in his room, I love being with him, near him, next to him... I love him.

Lord I pray for Adam, please God renew his strength, let him soar on wings like eagles, let him run and not grow weary in this journey, give him the ability to walk this road without being faint, spiritually, emotionally,  physically, and, mentally. (Isaiah 40:31)  We praise you for how far Adam has come, I thank you and praise you that Adam hasn't had a neurological storm in a couple months, I praise you that this new shunt is working properly.  Lord, I praise you for giving Adam the strength to fight every day to overcome this injury.  I praise you for being Jehovah-jireh our provider.  You are awesome, and mighty, You are amazing creator.  I praise you Lord, you are worthy of all my praise, honor, and all glory.  I love you Lord, Amen. 

PS: Blogspot image upload was down tonight so I was unable to upload a couple pictures from yesterday.  We will try again tomorrow. 

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Amazed By God's Timing

Thank you all for your amazing prayers today, God has heard the cries of our hearts and He moved mountains today!  God is so faithful, and in the last 24 hours I have had to trust competely in His faithfulness.  Psalm 33:4 "For the word of the LORD is right and true; he is faithful in all he does."
Adam and I made it to Boston this evening.  I will give details tomorrow, but for now I have been flooded with nurses, doctors, and admissions paperwork.  Adam's room just became silet for a  bit and I wanted to just let you all know we made it.

We are both exhausted and ready for some sleep.  I just tucked Adam in and made myself a nice bed in Adam's room.  Good night!

Good To Go, Preparing For Lift Off

Adam was cleared today for discharge to Spaulding!!!!  God is so good!!!!

Adam's tests all came back looking good and the doctors here at UNC are all encouraged how well Adam is doing. Once we got Adam's CSF results back showing no infection we all (nurses, respiratory, speech, case mangers, doctors, and myself) are celebrating! This is so great because we are heading to Spaulding knowing full well that Adam is ready (neurologically speaking).  It's been great to be here at UNC for the send off since we have walked so much of our journey here, it just seems appropriate that we would get a farewell here.

We are currently waiting for Spaulding to respond back to UNC and let us know if we can still come today.  Not sure if it will be today or tomorrow, but we're headed that way!!!  I will keep you all posted.  Please pray that this will all come together for today.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Took A Detour To UNC

What a day... a day that started with a whirlwind of thoughts and to-do lists to get everything in order for tomorrow's transfer to Boston.  Instead, this morning Adam's temperature went up and the doctors at WakeMed wanted to tap Adam's shunt (which means extract some cerebral spinal fluid and test it for infection) to make sure the infection he had been fighting the last couple of weeks completely cleared his shunt. So off to UNC we went. 

Adam is still doing great, he's alert and responding, so that's a praise.  He was also admitted onto a floor room and not ICU which is another praise!  The doctors here want Adam to get to Spaulding as soon as possible so they ordered Adam's tests and xrays to be done STAT.  If, I mean when, Adam is cleared there is still a possibility that we could be discharged to Spaulding tomorrow.  We are just waiting on results right now.  I will try to post tomorrow as soon as I know something, but it will just depend as the day unfolds.

Please pray for Adam's family, I talked with him mom briefly and she told me Adam's dad is in the hospital with his Myasthenia Gravis.  Please pray for Cookie, my mother in law, this has been a hard day for her with both Jack in the hospital and Adam being transferred back to UNC.

I was reminded today that I am not suppose to understand everything that happens in life, I am not suppose to understand why we came back to UNC and temporarily Adam's transfer to Spaulding is on hold.  That's why God gives His peace that surpasses ALL understanding.  It's when we don't understand, his gives peace that surpasses understanding.  I am holding onto the promise that we have been given peace for the journey and grace for the moment.  I have posted this verse many times, but I am always needing the reminder... Philippians 4:7 "and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."

Sunday, October 17, 2010

In His Arms

This morning I was sitting and having some quiet time with God.  As I was going into prayer, I heard Him say... "wait".  Normally when I enter into prayer I have this image in my head that I am bowed down at the feet of the throne, but this morning as I waited I had this image of God scooping me into His arms and holding me, and before I could begin praying I heard Him say "I know, I already know".  Such comfort in knowing that I am resting in His arms and that without saying having to say a word... He knows.  What a humbling experience to wait on the Lord this morning.  Psalm 33:20 "We wait in hope for the Lord; he is our help and our shield."

Adam has had a great day and even gave the nurse a thumbs up when she asked him about his day.  Adam and I sat outside in the courtyard today for 2 hours... it was so wonderful and peaceful.  I read to him and spent awhile talking with him, he engaged me the entire time I was talking with him.  Adam is so courageous and strong, and I am so proud of him.  He fights every day and I am in awe of how hard he works to get through this.  He amazes me, inspires me, and blesses me every day.  Adam had another chest xray today and his chest xray showed great results... there is so much power in prayer, keep 'em coming!  His xray showed improvement in his lungs, no change in his shunt, and his trach looked great!   Boston here we come!

Emotionally today has been a very difficult day, I had to do the final walk through the house that Adam and I have shared for most of our marriage, sign the title of his truck over, say too many "see ya later's", and prepare for court tomorrow.  This seems like it's more than I can take, but then I am reminded of this morning and how God showed me that I am in His arms, and He knows how hard this is. 

I have been reminded today of the song Safe by Phil Wickham (please read the lyrics, it's an amazing song)

To the one who's dreams are falling all apart

And all you're left with is a tired and broken heart
I can tell by your eyes you think your on your own
but you're not all alone
Have you heard of the One who can calm the raging seas
Give sight to the blind, pull the lame up to their feet
With a love so strong he'll never let you go
oh you're not alone

You will be safe in His arms
You will be safe in His arms
'Cause the hands that hold the world are holding your heart
This is the promise He made
He will be with You always
When everything is falling apart
You will be safe in His arms

Did you know that the voice that brings the dead to life
Is the very same voice that calls you to rise
So hear Him now He's calling you home
You will never be alone

These are the hands that built the mountains
the hands that calm the seas
These are the arms that hold the heavens
they are holding you and me

These are hands that healed the leper
Pulled the lame up to their feet
These are the arms that were nailed to a cross
to break our chains and set us free

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Tying Up Loose Ends

I am so thankful for every one of our friends... you all have been an amazing support.  Thank you to everyone who has helped in this process.  I am truly grateful.

Today has been a day of tying up loose ends and doing our final packing for the next couple of weeks.  It has been a little crazy and will only continue to be crazy until lift off on Tuesday.  One way God has already prepared me for Boston, is that sadly, we are used to hospital transfers so I know what to expect and I know what is needed.  I also know just how to be Adam's advocate and will continue to only grow in this role.  I also know that God has paved the way to Boston and I am just walking in His steps.  I am so glad that my man and I are in this together... I know he is cheering me on, just like I am cheering him along.  I love my man.

Adam has had a restful and relaxing day.  Praise the Lord that He answers prayers.   Praise the Lord his breathing sounds so much better today.  He slept a good portion which I believe is his body healing from this cold.  Praise the Lord he has had no fever!  Praise the Lord that I get to touch my man everyday, what a blessing and a gift that he is still here.  Praise the Lord for how far Adam has already come!  Psalm 100:4 "Enter his gates with thanksgiving, and his courts with praise!  Give thanks to him; bless his name!" 

There is so much to be thankful for and I will continue to give thanks and bless His name for all that He has done, all that He is doing, and all that He will do.  Lord I give you praise, you are so worthy of all my praise, I am so thankful that you have carried us in the palm of your hands.  Thank you for the healing that has already occurred in Adam's body.  I boldly come before you and ask for a full restoration in Adam's whole body... heal him Lord, please heal my man.  I thank you that you tore the veil so that I may know you and come to you, thank you Jesus.  It's in Jesus' name I pray... amen.

Friday, October 15, 2010

5 Months

5 months ago today was Adam's accident, it seems like eternity at the same time it feels like time has stood still.  When I first wrote about Adam's accident, I wrote "I recognize God as my comfort and my source of strength, He has carried me every step of the way through this and will continue to do so. I am trusting in Him completely, and where there is faith there is no fear."  God truly has been my source of comfort and strength and will continue to be so... I am trusting in Him every step of the way.  I love my man and I love how hard he works everyday to get better, he's amazing!!!

Please pray for Adam, he woke up this morning with a chest cold.  He seems more annoyed than in any discomfort.  The doctors wanted to make sure it was just a minor cold so they ordered a chest xray and blood cultures, the blood cultures came back normal and his chest xray showed negative for pneumonia, but the left lung had a hazy spot so they started antibiotics as precaution.  This should not interfere with the plans to transfer to Boston on Tuesday.  Adam still had a great day even though he wasn't feeling hundred percent.  He held his head up in physical therapy today and turned his head to the side and brought it back to the center again. 

It was so sweet, this afternoon I was holding Adam's hand and Mackenzie wanted to hold his hand so I took my hand out of his and I explained to him that Mackenzie wanted to hold his hand and he reached for Mackenzie's hand and held it.  It was so sweet, and Mackenzie was on cloud nine so happy that her dad held her hand.  I love my family.

The "goodbye for now's" have began and it has been very difficult.  Thankfully God is constant, he will never leave and has promised to go ahead and direct our path...  Psalm 119:133 "Direct my footsteps according to your word; let no sin rule over me."

Thank you for continuing to pray for my family, what a blessing it has been to have so many of you partnering with us in prayer.  Please pray for Adam's health, pray that this chest cold will heal miraculously overnight.  Please pray for all our immune systems to be strengthened.  I am praying and trusting... thank you for doing the same.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Prayer

There has been so much going on the last couple of days that my head is spinning... thankfully God doesn't give us more than we can handle, because that's how I know I can do this, He apparently thinks I can handle it.  Even though I am exhausted and there is still so much to do.  I will do my best to remember that everything is in His time, so if something doesn't get done... then it wasn't in His timing.

Adam had a pretty good day today.  Usually when I kiss Adam I use my index finger and point to my lips and ask for a kiss, today when I finished changing him he pulled his arm up and his hand to his mouth, and he used his thumb to point and make the same movement I do, and I just knew he was asking me for a kiss!  He's amazing!!!  Adam is truly the most incredible husband ever.  He didn't get much therapy today because Adam's unit is moving from Cary WakeMed to Raleigh WakeMed on Tuesday so everyone is getting ready for the move and it just seems busy  (this is why it is important that we fly out on Tuesday otherwise Adam will have to move with the unit to Raleigh and then move again... which would be too much).   

I would like to specifically ask you all to pray for the following:
  1. That Adam would continue to do awesome and have no fever!
  2. There would be no steps backwards through the transition from North Carolina to Spaulding in Boston.
  3. Pray for male friends for Adam while in Boston.
  4. Pray for Adam's team at Spaulding to be hand picked by God and would be ready to encourage and challenge Adam.
  5. Pray against any fever, sickness, or infection in Adam's body,
  6. Pray for the ability to speak and communicate to return
  7. Pray for the ability to process quickly and that he would defy all odds according to the doctors.
  8. Pray for his ability to swallow to become more consistent and would allow him to take the swallowing test and try more foods.
  9. Pray for all those who will be apart of transporting Adam and I to Boston
  10. Please pray that God would already be preparing Adam's room in Boston
  11. Pray for Mackenzie next week as we will be apart.
  12. Pray for Mackenzie and I that our relationship would strengthen and be pleasing and glorifying to God.
  13. Mackenzie slammed her thumb in the car door a month ago and the nail is just about to come off and she is having a lot of pain with that.
  14. Pray for an easy and quick adjustment for Mackenzie, Adam, and I
  15. Pray that God would be preparing friends for Mackenzie that would last a lifetime
  16. Please pray for Matt and Shannon (this is who Mackenzie and I will be living with for a bit) pray that God will honor them and bless them for their generosity, pray that God will continue to equip them for this season.
  17. Pray for us to find a church home up there very quickly
  18. Pray that we will find the right place to live for the right price
  19. Pray for my court date on Monday (I don't want to go into many details, but this is related to legal guardianship... the state of NC will not release us from their guardianship laws)
  20. Pray that God would give the 3 of us rest during the next several days
  21. Pray that I can get done everything that needs to get done before Tuesday.
  22. Pray for all those who have blessed us, that God would bless them tenfold.
Psalm 6:9
"The Lord has heard my supplication, The Lord receives my prayer."

Psalm 34:15
"The eyes of the Lord are toward the righteous And His ears are open to their cry."

Psalm 145:18&19
"The Lord is near to all who call upon Him, To all who call upon Him in truth. He will fulfill the desire of those who fear Him; He will also hear their cry and will save them."

Matthew 21:22
"And all things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive."

Philippians 4:6&7
"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God which surpasses all comprehension will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

1 John 5:14&15
"This is the confidence which we have before Him, that, if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us in whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests which have asked from Him."

Thank you all for joining us in prayer for this journey, it has been such a blessing and has been very humbling to know so many of you are praying every day for my man... thank you.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Quick Update

Tonight is going to be a very quick update, it's been a long week.  So much has taken place in one week's time, it's been very emotional.  Thankfully God does have us in the palm of His hand and He is carrying us through this difficult journey.  Isaiah 49:16 "I have engraved you on the palms of my hands;"  Picture your whole body engraved on His palm... that's a really cool picture, isn't it?!!!

First I want to thank everyone who helped move us out, store things, clean, sell items, take care of our yard, house our pets... and so much more... THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!  Adam and I are truly blessed by our incredibly, awesome friends (our North Carolina family). 

Adam had a great day, he was very alert today.  Even the speech therapist noticed a difference in Adam's attention he was giving her, he was very aware of what was going on and what she was telling him.  While Adam was in his wheelchair today I leaned over him and was talking to him and he reached his hand and grabbed my forearm and pulled me towards him.  He's doing so well.  Please keep praying against infection, and for his sleep cycle.  Please also pray for Adam to be prepared for this move and that he will not take any steps backwards, neurologically speaking.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Blessed By Your Children

I just want to thank all of you so much for your prayers, love, and support... you all have been amazing and have really helped carry me through such a difficult season.

I especially want to thank your children.  I have heard from so many of you stories of your kids praying for my man, I have heard so many sweet stories of how faithful they have been to lift him up in their bedtime prayers, prayers around meals, or even just random prayers.  Parents of another child told me how their daughter is a saver and doesn't like to spend her money, yet she freely on her own gave all that she has saved and gave it as an offering for Adam, I was so touched to the point of tears how tender your children are to God's calling on their hearts.  I know there are so many stories like these two that I may not even know about, but I want to thank you and your kiddos... God will repay what I cannot, only Heaven knows my heart.

The childlike faith has been such a beautiful and sweet example to me.  Please tell your kiddos who pray for my man how much it means to me.  Tonight I was given the blessing of getting to hear 4 sweet small children come and pray for Adam, my heart was so blessed and so touched.  Oh how sweet to hear their hearts for Jesus and their requests that Jesus would make Mr. Adam's head better, so sweet. Mark 10:14 & 15 "He said to them, 'Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.'"

Please continue to pray for Adam's sleep cycle, he was up all night last night and had a difficult morning in therapies.  He did better this afternoon, but he was pretty exhausted all day.  So please join me in praying that he will be able to have a normal sleep cycle (sleeping at night and awake during the day).

I did find out that our flight has been booked for Tuesday morning, so as long as Adam remains stable this week and continues to have no fever and his neurological exam shows no decline, then we leave Tuesday the 19th.  Please keep praying for us, last week and this week have been very busy and exhausting weeks for us.  I will continue to keep you all posted.

Monday, October 11, 2010

My Heart Is So Thankful

I have a huge prayer request and an awesome praise... I am going to start with the prayer request.

Tonight Adam finished his last dose of his antibiotic for his blood infection.  Only time will tell if the infection has truly cleared and managed to avoid his shunt.  The infectious disease doctor, Dr. Beckerer, came by today and said that really only watching him for the next several days will we be able to tell if the infection has cleared.  If by next Monday Adam continues to have no fever and neurologically speaking he doesn't go backwards then we will fly to Boston on Wednesday of next week.  I am believing and praying that there is no trace of infection anywhere in Adam's body.  If he shows any signs of a low grade fever or neurologically changes for the worse then he goes back to UNC... so please pray against this infection.  Please join me in praying healing over Adam's body, sickness, disease, illness... they have no place in my man's body.

So with my conversation with Dr. Beckerer... the plan is we will be here for at least one more week.  I will keep you posted as I know something. 

Adam had a great day today!   This morning during speech therapy, Deirdre put a spoon full of chocolate pudding in his mouth and left the spoon in his mouth at he lifted his left hand straight up and took the spoon out of his mouth.  Then later while the nurse was brushing his teeth, he did the same thing, he reached up for the tooth brush and helped brush his teeth... God is doing an amazing work in my man and I am so blessed that I get to see God's miracles in Adam progress every day.

I spent a good portion of my day just praising God for all that he has done.  There is so much joy in the journey.  The more I offer my thanksgiving the more God provides contentment in the midst of this situation.  Today I am grateful for:
  1. an all knowing, all powerful God who loved Adam and I enough to offer us eternal life with him 
  2. a God who supplies all our needs
  3. peace for the journey and grace for the moment
  4. a God who does work all things for the good, I am humbled and blessed by so many lives that have been touched through Adam's journey.  For those of you who have began walking with the Lord through this journey, please continue to be intentional about growing your faith.  God says remain in Him and He will remain in you.
  5. SCRIPTURE, praise God for scripture, every moment I am thankful for God's word and His promises.  His word has been a lamp unto my feet and a light unto the path.
  6. my man, what an amazing man of God and an awesome spiritual leader.
  7. an amazing, beautiful, and creative daughter... whose heart is so tender towards the Lord
  8. an incredible support system, (the world's greatest small group, and an awesome woman's bible study, plus friends and family) 
  9. the doctors, therapists, nurses, case managers, and other staff members at all the hospitals Adam has been in and is going to.  (they all have worked around the clock to provide the best care for Adam)
  10. Adam's gains that he has been making, he is truly a miracle and I am so blessed that God continues to heal Adam moment by moment
  11. technology and advanced medicine that has been available in Adam's care
  12. the sun in the sky that offers warmth to allow me to take my man outside every day
  13. Mackenzie's grief counselor who has been an amazing and tremendous blessing to both of us
  14. Samantha and her dog Qui for coming for Adam's pet therapy
  15. the moments of laughter in this journey, a cheerful heart is truly good medicine and I will be Adam's cheerful heart when he is unable
  16. Microsoft which has been amazing and wonderful what an incredible company to work for and to be apart of
  17. coffee, it brings so much comfort and is a little pleasure and treat for me
Usually when I finish my list of all the things I am grateful for that day as soon as I post it I can usually think of so many more... Focusing on what I am thankful for has brought so much peace and contentment.  Praise God.  If you are seeking to do God's will it's simple, His word says in 1 Thessalonians 5:18 "give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."  God's will is that we would give thanks in all circumstances... I challenge you to make a list at the end of your day of things you are most thankful for in that day. 

Tonight was small group night and small group and those who have closely walked this journey with us came over tonight for a bonfire in the front yard... it was a time of fellowship and prayer for Adam. It was so wonderful... here are some pictures from this evening... 



 Mackenzie playing a game with all the kids


 smores!!!


 John and Debbie

 The Caudill's

 The Ciancarelli's

 My North Carolina parents, Bob and Connie

 Amazing ladies of wisdom, Debby and Wanda

 The Strynar's

 The Alhmark's

The Jones' minus Jesse's wife Amy (we missed you)

The Kendall's

My girl... Stacy

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Humbled By The Presence of God

I feel ambushed by God's love for me and for my family. He is so faithful, so tender and sweet, so powerful... so present in every moment.  Early this morning I was driving to the hospital and God spoke so clearly to my heart... this journey isn't about whether or not Adam is restored here... it's so much more... it's about seeing God face to face some day, and living each and every day for that moment.  Our focus for this journey shouldn't come be whether or not God will restore Adam to me, but instead the focus should be on the day that I will stand before God face to face and for that alone this journey will be worth it all.  All my pain, all my joy, it will be worth it all.  I thank God that He has already claimed victory, the battle is won... I pray that I will be able to walk obedient every step of the way in His steps that He has laid out before me so that I will one day get the honor to see His face... IT WILL BE WORTH IT ALL. 

The service tonight at Triangle Community Church was amazing... God's presence was powerful, it was seeping through everyone who came and everyone who was praying from wherever they were.  At one point during the service I heard God tell me "not one tear from this journey will be waisted, I have collected them in my hands and they will be used for my glory."  I then had this vision of God's hands catching my tears and using them to knit Adam's brain back together one neuron at a time... God is so creative, so amazing... I praise Him because He is all knowing, all powerful... He is in control.  Hallelujah!

My heart is over flowing tonight with praise and thanksgiving for how much God has done through Adam's recovery in the lives of others and how much He has done in healing Adam.  Not just for allowing me one more day with my man, but also for so many lives that have been touch and forever changed through this season.  To be honest, I would never choose this, but I wouldn't trade it for anything, God's love has been more tangible than ever before.  So many of you shared with me how your lives have changed and my prayer for each of you is that your lives are FOREVER changed.  It's time for a new beginning, it's time that you all know that God loves you just the same and He is pursuing you just like He is me... it's time to be bold with our faith, the message of salvation is too precious and important not to share with those around us.

Thank you to all those who made tonight special and sacrificed time to put this together, thank you to TCC, to Jimmy Stopper who did an amazing message of hope (thanks to Ken Erickson, I was able to share Jimmy's message with Adam), thanks to Lanier, Aaron and all the youth students who led worship tonight... it was amazing!  Thank you to pastor Doug, thank you to Ken High and Doug Hunt for taking pictures (once I get pictures I will share them),  thank you to those who ran sound and slides, thank you to those who set up and took down chairs, thank you to those of you who took the time to either write a letter or share with me personally how God has used our journey to strengthen your faith... your stories bring so much encouragement.  I am sure I may have left someone out... I didn't mean to, I am just so grateful and appreciative for all that has been done for our family... I am humbled beyond words.  God will repay what I cannot, only heaven knows my heart.

Tonight after the service I went back to the hospital and when I got to Adam's room he seemed irritated, I asked him if I could climb into bed with him and he looked at me with a look of approval.  So I climbed in and as soon as I was snuggling up to his chest (my head has always fit perfectly in a little pocket on his chest), he lifted his arm and put it around me.  I shared with him the events of the evening, and I read a couple of cards that were handed to me, then as I was laying there praying for him, I found tremendous peace and we fell asleep in each other's arms.  My man is amazing, he does an incredible job letting me know how much he loves me even if he can't quite form words yet.  I love my man.  I am so grateful for God allowing me a longer journey with my man!  To Him be the glory that I was able to cuddle with my man tonight!  There is so much to be thankful for!

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Blessed Beyond Belief


Praise the Lord, He is so good!  Adam slept through the night last night!  This is such a huge answer to prayer, Adam's sleep cycle has been so messed up the last week and I didn't want him to have to go on a medication to help him sleep at night.  The last couple of days it looks like he is trying to get on a more normal sleeping cycle... please continue to pray for this.  God is so good. 

Today Adam and I were blessed that a dear friend of ours came to spend time with us.  Jan and I spent time talking, praying, and praising God for this journey.  At one point while Jan was talking to Adam, he was so alert and aware of what she was saying the connection with his eyes was intense.  It was neat to see Adam communicate so much with his eyes.  I do feel like words are coming soon, please keep praying for speech, but for now I am rejoicing in his sight and that we can see so much in his eyes.

Jan and I

Another blessing and praise, today I was feeding Adam ice chips and just about every time that I put the spoon close to his mouth he opened for the spoon and closed his mouth on it!  My man is amazing!  GO ADAM!!!

I want to thank all of those who have worked around the clock the last 3 days to get us moved.  I know that I am not even aware of all those that did pitch in and the pictures below are only a small glimpse of all those that did help... thank you. 

I am overwhelmed by all of you, you have all blessed my family immensely.  We are humbled and honored that so many of you gave so much of your time to help our family.  I have truly been blessed by the hands and feet of Christ's body.  1 Corinthians 12:12 "The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ."  Thank you all so much for being such a beautiful and wonderful example of Christ's body, I pray that God will bless each of you.

 Debby, Maryjane, Wanda, Debbie, and Mary
 Matt, Johnny, Mark, and Joe
 Lisa, Maryjane, me, and Debbie

I want to specially thank my best friend Debbie, she has been amazing at organizing so much of my life the last 5 months.  She has spent countless nights with me at sleeping in the waiting room at UNC, she has been a shoulder to cry on, she brings laughter when needed, John (her husband) and Debbie have spent many late nights consoling me, laughing with me, and crying with me. Debbie has spent days organizing this move and so many people to help.  Praise God for people with different gifts, she is very detailed orientated and I am not so good with the details.  She did an amazing job and I am truly blessed to call her a friend... she is the bestest friend a girl can have.  Thank you and I love you.

Friday, October 8, 2010

NIGHT OF PRAYER FOR ADAM SUNDAY

DON"T FORGET THIS SUNDAY OCTOBER 10th 6:30-8:00pm @ Triangle Community Church there is a special service being held... TCC where Adam and I attend church sent the following information out and I wanted those who don't attend to have the information as well. 

Special Evening of Prayer & Worship for the Roots - Adam, Amy & Mackenzie

On Sunday evening, October 10, from 6:30-8p we want to gather as a church family to pray, worship, and with much love, send Adam, Amy and Mackenzie Root to Boston as they start the next stage of Adam Root's Journey of Recovery.

Adam was in a motocross accident on May 15, 2010 in which he endured a traumatic brain injury and is currently in a coma.

At TCC, on Sunday night, we will worship and praise our Mighty God for the many answered prayers and changed lives that have resulted from Adam's journey.

In an effort to raise funds to financially assist this family during the next 12-24 months, we are asking for a generous offering that can be brought to TCC anytime, placed in the Sunday Morning Service offering or brought to the special service on Sunday night. Checks need to be made payable to TCC with "Root Family" in the memo line. Cash should be placed in an envelope with "Root Family" clearly written on the outside.

To further show our love, care & concern for Adam, Amy & Mackenzie, we are asking interested folks to bring a written letter to the family. In the letter, thoughts can be expressed, scripture shared, and descriptions given of what God has taught you and how you may have been changed through Adam's journey. The letter may also reflect the many ways that all three have demonstrated their faith before and now during this difficult chapter. These letters will be given to Amy to take with her to Boston and read in times she needs to feel the support of her church family and friends here in North Carolina. (Please do not include monetary donations within your envelope as we cannot anticipate how soon these letters will be opened.)

This is a family event. There isn't any child care but everyone is invited and welcome.
Thanks ahead of time for your prayers and support for this family.

Triangle Community Church
4216 Kildaire Farm Road
Apex, NC 27539
919.362.9996
http://www.tcc.org/

Adam had a great day today.  Your PRAYERS ARE BEING ANSWERED, Adam has remained awake most of the day today.  So he should sleep great tonight!  This afternoon during physical therapy and occupational therapy Adam was sitting on the edge of the bed and I asked him to lift his head up to look at me and he did!  He is understanding more and more every day.  With speech therapy this afternoon he was given peanut butter for the first time.  Peanut butter is hard because it requires a lot of tongue movement to get it to the back of the mouth and swallow.  Adam was able to tolerate about 2 bites, but then he was tired.  Speech started working with him minutes after PT and OT were done, so in all fairness to my man he was already tuckered out.  So we'll try again on Monday.

Several times throughout the day today Adam was trying so hard to form words, I know it's coming... he would move his tongue and be very vocal but in a way of trying to say something and not out of discomfort.  I am praying that God will give him the strength very soon to begin to talk, I know it's coming.  Adam has made so much progress since his last surgery... He is leaps and bounds ahead, and I praising God for how far he has brought Adam.  God is so good!

In Adam's room Hebrews 11:1 is posted on his wall and today I am consistently needing the reminder.  Hebrews 11:1 says "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."  I am trusting completely in God for the things unseen.  I am walking in complete blind faith, uprooting our family, moving to Boston for Adam's recovery, and in the journey of my faith I am trusting that God is going before us as promised and in with this trust, there is so much hope. 

God's love knows no limits.  Today He has showed me that some of the way He shows love to me is through the actions of others.  We have been so blessed by so many people helping us in this season and specifically in this time of transition.  Words will never come close to describe the overwhelming feeling of thankfulness I have for you all.  Our house was flooded with so many friends (really, they're our family) packing, and running our things to storage.  As I finished packing the last of mine and Adam's room this morning, I lost it... I laid on our bed sobbing, thinking this will be the last time for a very long that I will lay in the bed that Adam and I have shared since we have been married.  I know it's just a bed, but to me it's so much more.  the physical pain is too much.  This is truly the hardest life experience I have endured, my heart is broken and the pieces are shattered.  I am missing Adam more tonight than ever before.  I know we are not alone, and I know so many of you are walking this journey with us, yet, it's so lonely for me without my man.  I just want my man to hold me, to whisper in my ear that everything is going to be ok and he loves me.  Tears.

The day is coming when there will be no more pain, no more tears, and no more suffering. The day is coming that Adam will be fully restored.  Revelation 21:4 "He will wipe every tear from their eyes."

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Praising, Prayers, and Packing

Please know that I would love to write more, but I am exhausted... so it will be a quick post.

This morning I was able to make it in for Adam's speech therapy again and he did awesome.  This week has been a little more challenging than last week, but today he did awesome! The speech therapist gave Adam thickened apple juice and she purposefully left some on his lips... Adam stuck his tongue out to lick his lips... he did this 2 times!!!!  He's amazing!  Adam had such a great session and was continuing to work so hard that the speech therapist worked with Adam for a full hour and he seemed to tolerate with no problem.

Specific prayer requests:

1.  Adam's muscle tone to loosen up
2.  That Adam will continue to be without a fever and will not spike one when the course of his antibiotics finish up.
3.  Adam's sleep cycle to return to normal.  (He has been awake at night and sleeping almost all afternoons.)

Packing our house has become more emotional than I had expected.  This has been a very difficult week and I appreciate your prayers.  I want to thank everyone who has been helping in one way or another.  You all have blessed me so much and I pray that God will bless each of you in return.

I know that God is giving me His strength to rely on and I am praising Him for how mighty He is.  Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through him who strengthens me."

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

My Weakness His Strength

This morning I was able to be there for Adam's therapy sessions.  He has had a little more trouble this week, but I have been reminded so many times in this journey... one step forward, two steps backwards.  Last week Adam had such a great week and this week, he's struggled a lot more.  Today however he did reach over to hold my hand and at first his fist was clenched then when he moved his hand towards me his hand opened up to hold mine!  How sweet that was.  Tonight Adam was showing signs that he was in some discomfort and all of a sudden Adam lifted his hand all the way to his face, when I looked at his face I could see there was something wrong with his eye... I helped his arm move so that his hand could reach his eye and it looked like he was trying to rub it.  When I looked in his eye, he had an eyelash in there and we were able to flush it out and he instantly relaxed.  He is so much more aware and trying his best to communicate his needs, I am so proud of my man!  LOVE HIM!!!

I want to start by sharing this story that some of you may already be familiar with...

"The folklore surrounding Poland's famous concert pianist and prime minister, Ignace Paderewski, includes this story:
A mother, wishing to encourage her young son's progress at the piano, bought tickets for a Paderewski performance. When the night arrived, they found their seats near the front of the hall and eyed the majestic Steinway waiting on the stage.

Soon the mother found a friend to talk to, and the boy slipped away. When 8pm arrived, the spotlights came on, the audience quieted, and only then did they notice the boy up on stage sitting at the bench, innocently picking out, "Twinkle, twinkle little star."

His mother gasped, but before she could retrieve her son, the master appeared on the stage and quickly moved to the keyboard.

"Don't quit - keep playing," he whispered to the boy.

Leaning over, the master reached down with his left hand and began filling in the bass part. Soon his right arm reached around the other side, encircling the child, to add a running obligato. Together, the old master and the young novice held the crowd mesmerized.

In our lives, unpolished though they may be, it is the Master who surrounds us and whispers in our ear, time and time again,"Don't quit, keep playing." And as we do,he augments and supplements until a work of amazing beauty is created."

I have been struggling to hold on as tight as I can to my Master, I have been trusting that even in the midst of this craziness He is there holding me in my darkest hours.  I am holding onto His promise that He never leaves me nor forsakes me.  Praise God, because I think this is one of the hardest weeks I have ever encountered.  Psalm 20: 7 & 8 "Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God. They are brought to their knees and fall, but we rise up and stand firm."

I am having to tie up loose ends here, as well as prepare for my memories in this home to be packed up one box at a time.  Preparing to move has been extremely emotional...I am consistently questioning... am I doing the right thing?  Is this really the best thing to be doing, giving up so much of our lives and uprooting Mackenzie... it just seems like too much.  Then I am reminded that God has already walked before us, He has prepared Adam, Mackenzie, and myself for this journey.  He has done more than prepare us, this has been ordained by Him.  And in a moment of what seems like panic and anxiety, God washes and ambushes me with His love.  He reminds me that He has given me peace for the whole journey and continues to give grace for the moment.

During the second year of marriage when God was really working hard on my heart and when He began to teach me to be a Godly wife... He revealed to me how much responsibility the role of a husband has.  He showed me that Adam was responsible for our family and would some day have to answer to God for his decisions in regards to our family.  This is a responsibility that Adam always took very seriously and was in prayer often over us.  When God showed me this about Adam I began to let Adam know how much I respected him for taking his God given role so seriously.  I respected every decision he made, I may not have always agreed with it, but I always respected it knowing my man had prayed about any decisions and he knew what he was going to be held responsible for someday. 

These last couple of weeks I have had to make some very hefty decisions and in making these decisions it has made me appreciate Adam's role as husband, head of the home, and spiritual leader of our home... it has made me appreciate him in a whole new way.  With every decision being made, about moving, selling items, uprooting our lives, Adam's care... I pray that I will be able to have wisdom and discernment so that I can make decisions that will be glorifying to God.  I pray that I will remain obedient, knowing God is walking before us and is whispering in my ear the direction He wants to lead us.  I won't give up, I will listen to my Master's whispers and continue to walk forward in this journey, no matter how difficult the task at had seems to be.  I know one day... when I get to see my Master's face, it will be worth it all.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Whirlwind

Boston was a whirlwind of a trip.  It started with the fact that I had four hours of a plane ride to process everything that has been happening so quickly (this was the first time I had time just to ponder and think about everything) it was enough to make anyone feel weak.  Sunday was a difficult day, trying to focus on finding a place to live and processing the amount of change our family has faced in the last several months.  Stacy and I viewed close to if not 25 apartments in 30 hours, we haven't found anything yet... but God is good and he is faithful. 

Most likely Mackenzie and I will be going into hospitality housing offered through the medical community in Boston.  This will allow us more time to find the right place to call home.  I got a phone call from one of Adam's co-workers at Microsoft yesterday, he and Adam were on the same team before Adam transferred out to North Carolina.  Anyway, he and his wife transferred to Boston and are living really close by Spaulding.  He and his wife were kind enough to offer Mackenzie and I a place to stay until we find something, so again... God is so good.  Thankfully we have options.

We were able to tour Spaulding and meet Adam's doctor and nursing manager.  It was nice to sit down with them and get so many of my questions answered.  I am excited for Adam to be given this opportunity to make more gains in his recovery.  According to Adam's doctor at Spaulding, "he has so much potential"!  This was so great to hear!

As I laid in Adam's bed this morning I couldn't help but reflect on how far he has come in such a short amount of time and how thankful I am that God has spared me my man.  I am so blessed.  I boldly ask each of you to keep praying for Adam's FULL restoration.  I ask that you all pray for Adam, Mackenzie, and I as we transition to Boston.  Just a reminder to please join us this Sunday OCTOBER 10th 6:30-8:00pm  Night of prayer for Adam's recovery and a time to worship God for all that He has done, is doing and what is yet to come.  This will be held at our church Triangle Community Church 4216 Kildaire Farm Rd, Apex, NC 27539.  If you are not in the area please consider joining us by setting this time aside and praying for Adam's recovery from wherever you are.

I am praying tonight that God will wrap Adam, Mackenzie, and I in His loving arms.  There is so much to be done and it's very hard to be packing our home where we shared so many wonderful and sweet memories.  This is very difficult.  Romans 8:16 &17 "The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children. Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory."

I have been honored and blessed that so many of you want to help.  I appreciate all the emails, facebook messages, text messages, phone calls... but it's been a bit much for me to handle lately.  So I am sorry if I haven't responded yet... my really good friend Debbie is helping me organize everything that needs to get done and we have a whole team of people devoted to "Mission Up Root".  If you would like to know how to help please contact Debbie at debhagan@nc.rr.com   We are so blessed to have such amazing friends and support, thank you so much for all you have done.

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